Frustrators!
I'm really not in the mood to write something that is a long, sad, emo monologue that just further illustrates what's eating at me. However, I'd like to get it all out in hopes that...well in hopes that somehow it'll finally change things for the better. I don't know. After this I'm going out and not coming back for a while.
1. I don't like my roomate and his girlfriend constantly in the room. It makes me jealous, frustrated, and I just don't like waking up and hearing them making out, fucking, whatever. The best way for me NOT to get depressed about being single is to not have it shoved in my face.
2. I like her. I like her a lot, and not for the reasons that I think that she thinks, that I like her by. And she's got so much crap going on I have no idea where to go but just sit here and mope. Do I sit here and wait? Do I ignore her til she comes around? I'm not going to do that. I'm not going to wait by the phone for her to call When I go to a party to get it out of my mind, she ends up being there. So, I talk to her,inebriated, and wanting to finally grasp what it going on. It's nasty and I just like her way too much methinks. I try to talk to her about it, and it just goes nowhere, or something comes up, or she has a shitty evening. Hmm. Dan was right about her, I think.
Or, I could just be patient and let things even out. Yeah, that would work, and I've done a fairly good job of dealing with it. However, the roomate situation had a nasty way of opening a wound when I didn't want to think about it.
And with that, I'm off to food, bike riding 8 miles which-ever-way, with nothing better to do than try to "get away from it all."
1. I don't like my roomate and his girlfriend constantly in the room. It makes me jealous, frustrated, and I just don't like waking up and hearing them making out, fucking, whatever. The best way for me NOT to get depressed about being single is to not have it shoved in my face.
2. I like her. I like her a lot, and not for the reasons that I think that she thinks, that I like her by. And she's got so much crap going on I have no idea where to go but just sit here and mope. Do I sit here and wait? Do I ignore her til she comes around? I'm not going to do that. I'm not going to wait by the phone for her to call When I go to a party to get it out of my mind, she ends up being there. So, I talk to her,inebriated, and wanting to finally grasp what it going on. It's nasty and I just like her way too much methinks. I try to talk to her about it, and it just goes nowhere, or something comes up, or she has a shitty evening. Hmm. Dan was right about her, I think.
Or, I could just be patient and let things even out. Yeah, that would work, and I've done a fairly good job of dealing with it. However, the roomate situation had a nasty way of opening a wound when I didn't want to think about it.
And with that, I'm off to food, bike riding 8 miles which-ever-way, with nothing better to do than try to "get away from it all."