bear with me...
went to abo and syg
got lost i dont know how many times
almost got into a fight with a 35 year old fat drunk woman
almost got stranded in the most ghetto oakland neighborhood at 1 am
my voice is raspy
my throat is sore
my muscles are weak
my body is sleep deprived beyond belief
i have bags under my eyes
im getting sick
and it all seems worth it to me
im living life
not from the sidelines anymore
i am gaining memories that will last a lifetime ( as cheesy as that sounds)
I HAVE STORIES NOW
for every one person that treats me like shit
i know there are 5 more that enjoy my company and would do almost anything for me
fuck the haters
fuck the bitter assholes
if you actually knew me
youd know that i do not have an egotistical bone in my body
and am extremely lacking in the area of self confidence
people are so quick to point out flaws in others
when their time could be spent bettering themselves
its tough having a best friend that is so misunderstood
i wish people could form their own judgments of people
instead of letting other peoples opinions cloud their minds
oh vday
how i despise you
im fucking bitter
and ill be the first to admit it
i can say i want a relationship all i want
but we all know my actions prove otherwise
its hard to explain why i do the things that i do
but i honestly am trying to work on things
and i hope you can all accept that i have flaws
and help me to be a better person
the future is here
and it scares me
im glad that im gunna be able to experience it with aud
im excited about getting out of san jose
and the bay area for that matter
i want a fresh start
i want to learn about myself
i want to focus on school
i hope i turn into the biggest nerd
i need sleep.
....
this was a little glimpse into my life right now
i was trying to not post journals like this
but it seemed like the right thing to do
i needed to get some things off my chest
.feedback is always welcome
got lost i dont know how many times
almost got into a fight with a 35 year old fat drunk woman
almost got stranded in the most ghetto oakland neighborhood at 1 am
my voice is raspy
my throat is sore
my muscles are weak
my body is sleep deprived beyond belief
i have bags under my eyes
im getting sick
and it all seems worth it to me
im living life
not from the sidelines anymore
i am gaining memories that will last a lifetime ( as cheesy as that sounds)
I HAVE STORIES NOW
for every one person that treats me like shit
i know there are 5 more that enjoy my company and would do almost anything for me
fuck the haters
fuck the bitter assholes
if you actually knew me
youd know that i do not have an egotistical bone in my body
and am extremely lacking in the area of self confidence
people are so quick to point out flaws in others
when their time could be spent bettering themselves
its tough having a best friend that is so misunderstood
i wish people could form their own judgments of people
instead of letting other peoples opinions cloud their minds
oh vday
how i despise you
im fucking bitter
and ill be the first to admit it
i can say i want a relationship all i want
but we all know my actions prove otherwise
its hard to explain why i do the things that i do
but i honestly am trying to work on things
and i hope you can all accept that i have flaws
and help me to be a better person
the future is here
and it scares me
im glad that im gunna be able to experience it with aud
im excited about getting out of san jose
and the bay area for that matter
i want a fresh start
i want to learn about myself
i want to focus on school
i hope i turn into the biggest nerd
i need sleep.
....
this was a little glimpse into my life right now
i was trying to not post journals like this
but it seemed like the right thing to do
i needed to get some things off my chest
.feedback is always welcome