I don't need anyone to tell me that it would be next to impossible to find a person that would treat me better than Lauren.
It's not about that...it's so much deeper, and so hard to put into words...
Lauren is amazing, she is selfless, and by far one of the most giving lovers, and human beings I have ever had the pleasure to have in my life. I want to keep her in my life, romantically or not...she is just to beautiful to let go...
That being said, this is still all so difficult. She asks me on a daily basis what want from her. I tell her the same thing every time. I just want to see her smile...no strings, no complications, I just want her to be happy. I'm not doing that as much lately. My desire to explore my options definitely clashes with her desire to be committed to someone...So, the question is...do I stay or do I go? Should I leave her alone no matter how much she wants me to stay, simply because I feel I can not give her all that she wants. Or...do I go...saving her from any heartache that may occur?
I don't need anyone to tell me that it would be next to impossible to find a person that would treat me better than Lauren.
It's not about that...it's so much deeper, and so hard to put into words...
Lauren is amazing, she is selfless, and by far one of the most giving lovers, and human beings I have ever had the pleasure to have in my life. I want to keep her in my life, romantically or not...she is just to beautiful to let go...
That being said, this is still all so difficult. She asks me on a daily basis what want from her. I tell her the same thing every time. I just want to see her smile...no strings, no complications, I just want her to be happy. I'm not doing that as much lately. My desire to explore my options definitely clashes with her desire to be committed to someone...So, the question is...do I stay or do I go? Should I leave her alone no matter how much she wants me to stay, simply because I feel I can not give her all that she wants. Or...do I go...saving her from any heartache that may occur?
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