should i bother?
I'm not sure why I even bother to update my journal anymore. Eh. I guess it's just for venting purposes.
Sooo...I'm very sleepy right now, it's almost 9 a.m. and I haven't slept yet. Hope to stay awake until tonight. Passing the fuck out at like 11 or 12, would be fuggin sweet.
I tried to write an article for Style Weekly, but I think I've been out of my writing groove for so long that I'm far too rusty. I don't feel like my stuff is all that good anymore. Also, naturally I wanted the story to be somewhat profound and thought provoking. I figured I'd snag the chance to write about something having to do with being a lesbian. That way if I won the contest, my big lesbian story would be read by tons of people. However, about 400 words into my story it just got lame, or at least I felt like it was lame. I wish I could get my motivation and confidence back.
What else is going on? I hate yogurt. It's disgusting. I've officially decided this, and while it's a great diet food, it reminds me of man-jizz.
I'm trying to get cut. Cut and buff. More cut and tone than actually buff. I want stronger arms. When I was working at B-dub's I started getting diesel arms...diesel for me, anyway. It was hott. Since I quit, I've gradually lost the muscle definition in my arms. Maybe I should start benching.
There are so many things I want to do. I even made a list the other day. I keep telling myself that I can do it, that if I just get the ball rolling it'll all come more easily.
Bleh, I'm sleepy...need to get up and move.
Sooo...I'm very sleepy right now, it's almost 9 a.m. and I haven't slept yet. Hope to stay awake until tonight. Passing the fuck out at like 11 or 12, would be fuggin sweet.
I tried to write an article for Style Weekly, but I think I've been out of my writing groove for so long that I'm far too rusty. I don't feel like my stuff is all that good anymore. Also, naturally I wanted the story to be somewhat profound and thought provoking. I figured I'd snag the chance to write about something having to do with being a lesbian. That way if I won the contest, my big lesbian story would be read by tons of people. However, about 400 words into my story it just got lame, or at least I felt like it was lame. I wish I could get my motivation and confidence back.
What else is going on? I hate yogurt. It's disgusting. I've officially decided this, and while it's a great diet food, it reminds me of man-jizz.
I'm trying to get cut. Cut and buff. More cut and tone than actually buff. I want stronger arms. When I was working at B-dub's I started getting diesel arms...diesel for me, anyway. It was hott. Since I quit, I've gradually lost the muscle definition in my arms. Maybe I should start benching.
There are so many things I want to do. I even made a list the other day. I keep telling myself that I can do it, that if I just get the ball rolling it'll all come more easily.
Bleh, I'm sleepy...need to get up and move.