that will always be my favorite memory
yeah i was supposed to start listening to northstar i burned the CD and put it in my discmanthing and now i cant find it. i need that for tomorrow my long car ride to the therapist in guam. i think im going to ask my therapist to help me figure out how to tell my mom that i have a girlfriend lol. i get to start dance soon im excited i havent been there in so long. im gona be so behind and out of shape but i dont give a shit.
the things tamara says about me make me so happy. i never would think anyone could like me so much. im worried what happens when she REALLY gets to know me. well i dont know, theres not much to know about me. i just like to have fun all the time. i make mistakes and i hate myself and critisize myself too much. i fucked a lot of good things up in my life, a lot of good relationships and friendships. but this time im not gona let that happen. this is such a wonderful perfect chance to be happy. i always wanted a fresh start and this is it for real. DONT FUCK THIS UP RACHEL.
it's so weird how things happen. if i didnt get in a fight with those girls and try to kill myself, i would have never met tamara. i was down to my worst and now out of nowhere i finally have a break. even though we both like girls blah blah blah, tamara is religious. and before i met her when i was doing so horribly i had been doing so much praying so much crying and just begging God to get me out of this. and well i suppose he did. tamara was my answer.
oh heres a nice update.... my mother hands me a magazine that says on the cover "CONQUERING YOU FEARS" with a huge spider on it. and she says to me "can you please check if there are any mice in there cause if there is im not reading it" good one mom.
the things tamara says about me make me so happy. i never would think anyone could like me so much. im worried what happens when she REALLY gets to know me. well i dont know, theres not much to know about me. i just like to have fun all the time. i make mistakes and i hate myself and critisize myself too much. i fucked a lot of good things up in my life, a lot of good relationships and friendships. but this time im not gona let that happen. this is such a wonderful perfect chance to be happy. i always wanted a fresh start and this is it for real. DONT FUCK THIS UP RACHEL.
it's so weird how things happen. if i didnt get in a fight with those girls and try to kill myself, i would have never met tamara. i was down to my worst and now out of nowhere i finally have a break. even though we both like girls blah blah blah, tamara is religious. and before i met her when i was doing so horribly i had been doing so much praying so much crying and just begging God to get me out of this. and well i suppose he did. tamara was my answer.
oh heres a nice update.... my mother hands me a magazine that says on the cover "CONQUERING YOU FEARS" with a huge spider on it. and she says to me "can you please check if there are any mice in there cause if there is im not reading it" good one mom.