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today i slept and i had dreams about people burning to death and all they could do was jump off a cliff into water. and i was having panic attacks and i couldnt make it go away. but besides all that morbid stuff. ive been spending the days at grandmas house because my mom doesnt trust me to be home alone. i think im safer alone because at grandmas house there is quite a lot of alcohol and sharp objects and the old peeps are always busy doing something. but i like spending time with my grandmother watching judging amy and playing card games. i love granny. tomorrow i get to help her prepare for thanksgiving. :)
today i went through old family photo albums and i noticed that everyone has gained a ton of weight. my mom and my uncle looked pretty good in the pictures compared to now. and i used to think they were big then. and there was a picture of me and my two older cousins, one of which i never talk to anymore, and the other one of which the whole family doesnt talk to anymore. i used to be really close with both of them. and there were pics of me in my awkward middle school stages with glasses and braces. i looked terrible. no wonder i never had any boyfriends. i bet in a few years i'll look at pics of me now and be like wow i thought i looked decent.
today i went through old family photo albums and i noticed that everyone has gained a ton of weight. my mom and my uncle looked pretty good in the pictures compared to now. and i used to think they were big then. and there was a picture of me and my two older cousins, one of which i never talk to anymore, and the other one of which the whole family doesnt talk to anymore. i used to be really close with both of them. and there were pics of me in my awkward middle school stages with glasses and braces. i looked terrible. no wonder i never had any boyfriends. i bet in a few years i'll look at pics of me now and be like wow i thought i looked decent.