letting it all out
not because i want you to say im sorry, or because it will make you think differently of me, but because i think you should know. i have not been a very good friend in the past month or so, and this is why.
the last month and a half or so has been the most miserable period in my life to date. every day i have been fighting against the apparently inevitable, what is going to be coming and what i refuse to accept. every day is a big puddle of confusion that leads to a hell of a lot of negative thinking; as a result, i have become consumed. i don't like it, im trying to stop it from happening every day, but it's what happens. in the past month and a half i have lost between 10-15 pounds because my appetite has gotten smaller and smaller.
i have my days. some days feel alright, others are absolute garbage. but im trying. im trying to be there for you so i can stop being so focused on myself and my problems, but it's hard.
when you've spent more than a year and a half with someone, there isn't much that doesn't remind you of that person. that's part of this too. if you want to know more of what's going on, ask me in a more personal setting.
i'm still crossing my fingers
the last month and a half or so has been the most miserable period in my life to date. every day i have been fighting against the apparently inevitable, what is going to be coming and what i refuse to accept. every day is a big puddle of confusion that leads to a hell of a lot of negative thinking; as a result, i have become consumed. i don't like it, im trying to stop it from happening every day, but it's what happens. in the past month and a half i have lost between 10-15 pounds because my appetite has gotten smaller and smaller.
i have my days. some days feel alright, others are absolute garbage. but im trying. im trying to be there for you so i can stop being so focused on myself and my problems, but it's hard.
when you've spent more than a year and a half with someone, there isn't much that doesn't remind you of that person. that's part of this too. if you want to know more of what's going on, ask me in a more personal setting.
i'm still crossing my fingers