living for today, it isn't hard to do

[toomanyangels]

Sometimes I feel like there are some of my friends at school that only talk to me because I'm Aimee's roommate. I don't know if its true or not but that just seems to be the way that it is. I try to be a nice person and I know that I am trying hard, but I also know that I'm not a nice person. I need to change my attitude towards ignorant people.... it seems like if there is any person that is even slightly ignorant I just get super frustrated with them. I deffinately need to be a better person, but I also think that if people knew me better they would realize that I am in fact a nice person, I'm just very matter of fact with dry humor. I don't know what brought on this sudden surge of me wanting to be more liked but I think its the fact that when I read other people's journals and they are talking about the people they could possibly talk to or things they want to do with other people I'm never on the list or I should say hardly ever on the list.

Anyway next subject...
I spent the entire weekend at Jared's. I got to see Ahren, he kept giving me kisses and hugs... he is so cute. I want one just like him but not for like atleast 4 more years. We went to Portland again and Jared spoiled me again... don't tell but I think that he loves me. :P

I hope that this week goes by quick. We are going camping this weekend. It should be fun. My family, the Beaudet's and there extended family, plus hopefully Jared and Kevin. I'm excited and I can't wait until this weekend.

I guess thats all for now.
Later kids

XOXO
Kayla