halloween
i guess i never really listened to people when they told me alcohol brings out the worst in people. drugs let you see people for who they really are. i guess thats really what i have been thinking about most of today. last night was.....strange. strange or fucked up, choose whichever you like. i have found a new way to deal with the rage and depression that always seem to be within whispering distance of my mind. i dont fucking get myself sometimes. i feel like (as does everyone else) i would be so much better off without adriane, but at the same time i know after i break up with her i will want to be witrh her a few days later. madison seems like my only friend at all. fuck everybody else. fuck them all.