There's a hole in the earth. I hope it's in Texas.
For some reason I've become really insulting towards Texas these days. America too, but namely Texas. It's just so simple.
Dobe: GOD, THIS GUY IS FUCKING DUMB!
Me: Who? You'll have to be more specific; you live in America.
Then we chuckled.
Anyway, updates. It snowed overnight. It was so pretty when I woke up this morning. I started at 10 which meant I had to walk to school. I didn't mind. Oh, how beautiful. Cars, grass, bushes, covered in snow. Not covered, I take that back. But more than I've ever seen on a sunny sunny day. I used to wonder where birds went when it got cold, but now I figure that they spend a while searching for bird houses, much in the same manner hobos search for bus stops. There's usually this large puddle of water (as opposed to what, Katy?) in the courtyard at school but this morning it was frozen over, so Maria and I pretended to ice-skate on it in my fake vans and her fake Chucks (hehe, we were meant for each other <3) until the ice broke and our feet got wet. Then we went to class. Ha, burn, got the floor wet. Take THAT, Mme Charpentier!
Right, and now what you all REALLY want to know, how I am feeling And I know you all want to know this because I've gotten txts, emails and comments asking me how I am. Well, I'm sad. Very very sad. But I have fantastic friends so I'm getting over it. If you'll all take a moment to think back on my past break-ups you'll notice that they were all very easy on me. Mostly because I ...did the breaking up. Except that one time. But I took that one easy. So I knew that some day my time will come, and that I would have one of those break-ups that felt earth shattering, like I was never going to stop thinking about it, contemplating where it went wrong, arguing endlessly with myself about whose fault it was. I was just really hoping that I wouldn't get it from him. The good news is I have stopped arguing with myself about whose fault it was, because I realised it wouldn't get anyone anywhere. I stopped contemplating where it went wrong, because all I need to know is that it did. The earth, along with myself, has stopped shaking. Sadly, I haven't stopped thinking about it. And I haven't stopped being sad. And I haven't stopped being in love. Cunt. So, I'm doing that little thing that people do, what's it called? Oh, yeah, getting over it. I'm being really lazy about it though. So I'm getting over it in Katy-like fashion. For example, I've been meaning to take the photo of myself and Rhys out of the photo frame next to my bed cos I kept seeing it and going all emo. But I couldn't be bothered going ALL THE WAY to the other side of my room to get my photo album to put it away and pick a new photo. I mean, I'd have to take apart the frame, OPEN THE PHOTO ALBUM and oh god it's hard. So instead, the photo frame is just face down with a Rubix cube on it. I don't know why the Rubix cube's on it. I think it just needed a place to go.
I had enough of that silly business to do with losing weight after I accidently lost 8 kilos and wanted them back when it started getting colder. So I put 3 back on, but this still leaves me 5 kilos lighter than when I left and still without the sweet juicy warm blubber that I'm used to. This means I have to wear a coat.
Dobe: GOD, THIS GUY IS FUCKING DUMB!
Me: Who? You'll have to be more specific; you live in America.
Then we chuckled.
Anyway, updates. It snowed overnight. It was so pretty when I woke up this morning. I started at 10 which meant I had to walk to school. I didn't mind. Oh, how beautiful. Cars, grass, bushes, covered in snow. Not covered, I take that back. But more than I've ever seen on a sunny sunny day. I used to wonder where birds went when it got cold, but now I figure that they spend a while searching for bird houses, much in the same manner hobos search for bus stops. There's usually this large puddle of water (as opposed to what, Katy?) in the courtyard at school but this morning it was frozen over, so Maria and I pretended to ice-skate on it in my fake vans and her fake Chucks (hehe, we were meant for each other <3) until the ice broke and our feet got wet. Then we went to class. Ha, burn, got the floor wet. Take THAT, Mme Charpentier!
Right, and now what you all REALLY want to know, how I am feeling And I know you all want to know this because I've gotten txts, emails and comments asking me how I am. Well, I'm sad. Very very sad. But I have fantastic friends so I'm getting over it. If you'll all take a moment to think back on my past break-ups you'll notice that they were all very easy on me. Mostly because I ...did the breaking up. Except that one time. But I took that one easy. So I knew that some day my time will come, and that I would have one of those break-ups that felt earth shattering, like I was never going to stop thinking about it, contemplating where it went wrong, arguing endlessly with myself about whose fault it was. I was just really hoping that I wouldn't get it from him. The good news is I have stopped arguing with myself about whose fault it was, because I realised it wouldn't get anyone anywhere. I stopped contemplating where it went wrong, because all I need to know is that it did. The earth, along with myself, has stopped shaking. Sadly, I haven't stopped thinking about it. And I haven't stopped being sad. And I haven't stopped being in love. Cunt. So, I'm doing that little thing that people do, what's it called? Oh, yeah, getting over it. I'm being really lazy about it though. So I'm getting over it in Katy-like fashion. For example, I've been meaning to take the photo of myself and Rhys out of the photo frame next to my bed cos I kept seeing it and going all emo. But I couldn't be bothered going ALL THE WAY to the other side of my room to get my photo album to put it away and pick a new photo. I mean, I'd have to take apart the frame, OPEN THE PHOTO ALBUM and oh god it's hard. So instead, the photo frame is just face down with a Rubix cube on it. I don't know why the Rubix cube's on it. I think it just needed a place to go.
I had enough of that silly business to do with losing weight after I accidently lost 8 kilos and wanted them back when it started getting colder. So I put 3 back on, but this still leaves me 5 kilos lighter than when I left and still without the sweet juicy warm blubber that I'm used to. This means I have to wear a coat.