Fuck Monday and everyone in it!!!
GGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So I think that today is one of those days when I can't be around anyone except Travis. Every single person that I've interacted with today has made me feel like shit or pissed me off. Ten million little things happened to me and it all just made me insane. I've had three major moods today; depressed, angry and insane. I know that insanity really isn't a mood but for today it is. I was so depressed this morning that I didn't go to Angela's class today which is a big deal. She e-mailed me with concern because i missed class and didn't let her know ahead of time which isn't like me at all. Then every little thing and person has been pushing every single fucking button I have. The final straw was when I was at my parents house. I took a step and my flip flop broke for no reason. I just fucking lost it. I sat and cried for like twenty minutes. Now I'm drinking. The reason I've determined that Travis is the only one I can be around is because we're paychically connected and he's in the exact same mood. So we're going to get completely drunk. I know that's not the way to deal with my problems but I don't give a fuck. Tonight I'm all about the wrong way to deal with things. I'll deal with my problems the right way in therapy on Wednesday. Great start to the week. Hopefully this isn't a foreshadowing of the rest of the week.
So I think that today is one of those days when I can't be around anyone except Travis. Every single person that I've interacted with today has made me feel like shit or pissed me off. Ten million little things happened to me and it all just made me insane. I've had three major moods today; depressed, angry and insane. I know that insanity really isn't a mood but for today it is. I was so depressed this morning that I didn't go to Angela's class today which is a big deal. She e-mailed me with concern because i missed class and didn't let her know ahead of time which isn't like me at all. Then every little thing and person has been pushing every single fucking button I have. The final straw was when I was at my parents house. I took a step and my flip flop broke for no reason. I just fucking lost it. I sat and cried for like twenty minutes. Now I'm drinking. The reason I've determined that Travis is the only one I can be around is because we're paychically connected and he's in the exact same mood. So we're going to get completely drunk. I know that's not the way to deal with my problems but I don't give a fuck. Tonight I'm all about the wrong way to deal with things. I'll deal with my problems the right way in therapy on Wednesday. Great start to the week. Hopefully this isn't a foreshadowing of the rest of the week.