Oct 11, 2006 05:11
So its 5:11 in the morning, i have a flight in 5 and half hours, I can't sleep because I'm having trouble with this damn physics lab. It took me like 45 minutes to find a way to graph semi-log plots. Now, I'm roling away, but I think I'm going to get lost when I actually have to find the information off the graph. But enough of my physics problems... And tonight, I stopped to get my mail at the RV Park office, and I ran into a fucking concrete post. It was really humid so my windows were fogged up and I turned into it. I didn't see it at all, until I was right on top of it. I'm pretty sure I just did close to 700 dollars worth of damage to my car.
I just finished watching the first season of Deadwood and its really good. I think the fact that something is western deters people from watching it, but I like it.
Tonight, I was hanging out with some people and we started talking about what we believed in like as far as life/death and our belief in God. Not so much, that I question my stance on God, but it kicked me into ultra-reflective mode. Up until the last month, I thought I had finally figured myself out. This might just me going insane from living by myself in a trailer, but I felt great. But, I'm thinking I just sort of zoned out for a year. I know I've done stuff and seen things. I just feel stagnant. I think I need a change in my life. And not a way that a haircut or shaving off a moustache will do... For instance, this morning I woke up, it was cold because of the rain. So I just sort of buried myself under my comforter and went to sleep. Its the moments like these when I feel alone. A moment where I feel like i'm experiencing something new, and I have no one to share it with. Its the moment when you look around and realize that you have been doing the same thing for God knows how long... Like today, I was wondering what it would be like to edit Soap Operas. I mean they have a new one everyday so they just roll out the same product. I really can't think of a more horrible job than watching the same storyline never resolve itself, and just have to keep plugging along. Its what I feel like minus the comas, twin brothers, affairs, and amenisa (sp...). To do the same thing over and over, before it always seemed like I had some sort of escape. But now, it seems like I'm just trapped. I'm going to grow some balls and talk to the girl beside me in 318.
Maybe, I just need a stiff drink and a piece of ass. (sorry Deadwood has caused my language to go down hill significantly...)