so at least for the week...
I'm going on an anti-drug hiatus. No more drugs. I can't handle them anymore. Too much. I'm gonna say this includes alcohol.
So there's a boy...His name is Travis. I think I like him. But not the way I usually like boys. He's different. Like for me in the past, once I would make out with a boy...I would practically immediately fall in love with them, even if I didn't really know them at all. I would get obsessive. But this time It's different. I'm not falling head over heels for this boy. How I feel about him, isn't just an initial response of my spastic hormones, I'm not jaded in any way. Which makes me feel a little unsure and hesitant about this thing that we have stirred up, but I guess that's how its supposed to be. I'm supposed to be unsure, because one, I barely know the kid. I think I am growing up. This is by far the best crush I have ever had on a boy. Cuz I really like him, but I'm not feeling completely dependant on him, which is fucking awesome.
Things I like about him: I like his beard. I think facial hair on boys is super hot. I like his hair, its very school boy, and that is cute. I like the way he touches me- He's gentle and aggressive at the perfect times. He is in school that is definitely a plus. I'm not allowed to date low-lifes anymore...Nor do I want to-thanks to years of therapy, I finally respect myself. And he is dedicated. He baked cakes for a set he was working on. Picture it, because its cute as hell. And he sets his alarm clock and wakes up right when it goes off, and gets up! At like 9am, after we've been drinking and staying up late. Amazing.
oi, i'm done gushing, I guess I should get ready for work...Work? Oh yeah, I'm done with Blue Fin in two weeks. So if you know of any place that is hiring that doesn't suck, lemme know!
So there's a boy...His name is Travis. I think I like him. But not the way I usually like boys. He's different. Like for me in the past, once I would make out with a boy...I would practically immediately fall in love with them, even if I didn't really know them at all. I would get obsessive. But this time It's different. I'm not falling head over heels for this boy. How I feel about him, isn't just an initial response of my spastic hormones, I'm not jaded in any way. Which makes me feel a little unsure and hesitant about this thing that we have stirred up, but I guess that's how its supposed to be. I'm supposed to be unsure, because one, I barely know the kid. I think I am growing up. This is by far the best crush I have ever had on a boy. Cuz I really like him, but I'm not feeling completely dependant on him, which is fucking awesome.
Things I like about him: I like his beard. I think facial hair on boys is super hot. I like his hair, its very school boy, and that is cute. I like the way he touches me- He's gentle and aggressive at the perfect times. He is in school that is definitely a plus. I'm not allowed to date low-lifes anymore...Nor do I want to-thanks to years of therapy, I finally respect myself. And he is dedicated. He baked cakes for a set he was working on. Picture it, because its cute as hell. And he sets his alarm clock and wakes up right when it goes off, and gets up! At like 9am, after we've been drinking and staying up late. Amazing.
oi, i'm done gushing, I guess I should get ready for work...Work? Oh yeah, I'm done with Blue Fin in two weeks. So if you know of any place that is hiring that doesn't suck, lemme know!