love to rant love rants..
ohhh myyy goodddddd..
my life is a series of devastating events...
first ben and i break up and its the hardest blow ever..
but then i meet this wonder from the west coast a month ago..
and thats just what was wrong! he moved back to LA today.
every day has been absolutely amazing..
i havent stayed up til 3am every night since i met ben..and i missed that so much.
where does that energy come from exactly? i LOVE IT.
its much easier to rid of someone in your life with anger or to focus on whatever ill will you have toward them..
but its extremely difficult to have someone leave your life and miss them like crazy..especially when you both are mad for eachother.
we are adults! this is supposed to be easier! we make our own decisions..i dont get it.
why do we have to decide to be sad...
i know why...and im being selfish..
i feel like i have been on vacation this past month and today is my first day back to reality.
argh...
i feel like a teenager!
my life is a series of devastating events...
first ben and i break up and its the hardest blow ever..
but then i meet this wonder from the west coast a month ago..
and thats just what was wrong! he moved back to LA today.
every day has been absolutely amazing..
i havent stayed up til 3am every night since i met ben..and i missed that so much.
where does that energy come from exactly? i LOVE IT.
its much easier to rid of someone in your life with anger or to focus on whatever ill will you have toward them..
but its extremely difficult to have someone leave your life and miss them like crazy..especially when you both are mad for eachother.
we are adults! this is supposed to be easier! we make our own decisions..i dont get it.
why do we have to decide to be sad...
i know why...and im being selfish..
i feel like i have been on vacation this past month and today is my first day back to reality.
argh...
i feel like a teenager!