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something is so wrong with me.. i don't know what or why but i am like falling apart.. i am sitting here and i like, busted out crying for absolutely no reason.. i feel like i seriously have nobody who genuinely cares about me.. and i feel like i can't trust anyone.. not even my closest friends.. i'm so sorry, i love you guys.. it's not you, it's just that there is something in my brain telling me that everyone is against me or something.. everything is actually pretty good in my life, but i feel so empty it's not funny.. i feel like something is missing in my life, and i don't even know what it is.. or maybe i do =/ one minute i will be all happy and laughing and i can't wait to be around my friends, but the smallest things make me think that they really don't care about me that much.. it's bullshit, i know.. please don't be mad at me guys, i love you so much, you know i do.. i just feel like there are some things i can't talk to you about and it drives me crazy because i want to... sometimes i feel like i care more about my friends than they do about me.. i know there is something seriously wrong in my head tho.. just sittin here thinking about how i don't know how to deal when people really show me how much they love me.. like i'm not used to it or something.. so i ruin it, and now here i am.. i don't know what it is with me that i ruin everything good.. i'm sorry.. i'm crying for no reason this is so fucking stupid.. fuck this i'm out <^>