can't be two years
Here we are again on another November 15. How could 2 years ago by? How can it be 2 years since we lost you? It still doesnt seem real. It wasn't suppose to happen. You didn't deserve it. It's all such a blur now. I use to be able to remember it all so clearly. Now the only thing i can remember is what you looked like laying in that casket. The makeup..the stiffness..the unrealness. It didn't look like you at all and i honestly believe thats why we didn't believe it. I think about you at least once everyday. People always remind me of you. On the 27 in the morning i see your friend all the time and i just think about you and you and him and how he is doing. And in school i see your friend everyday. And i picture him on the alter at the end of your funeral mass talking about you and crying and showing how much he loves and cares for you matt. I just don't understand how or why this happened. Your parents are so strong. I have never met stronger people. I admire your mother so much. Ill never forget how i felt when i went up and hugged her after kneeling down by you and saying goodbye. All i keep thinking is Why? Why did your family have to loose you? Why did your best friends and girlfriends and exgirlfriends have to go thro the pain? You changed all of our lives forever. I hope you know that Matt. You've changed mine and me and you werent even close. But you were a part of my life since i was about 4 and now that you just arent around anymore hurts. The other day i watched the kindergarden talent show. And there me and you were The last DO. Little dorky kids we were. And everytime i walk into my room i see the picture of our 4th grade class on the million dollar staircase. I go to work and i make sure no matter where i am on the bus no matter which way im facing i turn and look at the pole and remember. We will always remember. You will NEVER be forgotten. No matter how many years pass us by. You were just a kid. You didn't deserve this. We will be remembering you tonight at 6 at your pole. You are forever 15 kiddo. And we miss you more and more each day. You are forever in all of our hearts.
RIP Matthew James Tedesco October 7 1987-November 15 2002.
Saddest Day in Sweet November. Edit: The memorial at the pole was great. Matt's parents came. As i said before they are truely the strongest people ive ever met. Matt's mom came up to me and put her arm around me and stood with me. I didnt know what to do but rub her back and be there for her. Matt's Dad stood and talked with us for a few. I'm just glad they got to see how much we care and miss Matt. We talked, put flowers up, had candles and we remembered. Matt..it just cant be 2 years...come home. please.