Awww man....
Ok, so it has been a while since my last actual update. So I guess I should fill you all in on what's been happening.
MY PHONE BROKE *pouts*!!! No texting for me...and on top of that, my front screen cracked! I don't know how either of them happened. The front screen just up and cracked, no scratches on the surface, no cracks, no nothing. The phone company doesn't know what's wrong with my text messaging, so I guess I get to just buy a new phone. Each costing well over $200, which kinda pissed me off.
Other than that, everything else is still the same. Mother is driving me up a wall, and also driving me to drink. Pretty soon, I'll need to schedule everything around my AA meetings instead of work and school. Also, I've been thinking about my "purpose", what "makes me me", and where I'm heading with what few (bad) relationships are going. My purpose, mainly, is to be the eternal shoulder to cry on. Be suckered into always helping people, being used in the process, realize I'm being used, but keep helping. I hate it, I'm SUCH a fucking push-over sometimes. What makes me who I am would be all of my flaws, being unique from everyone else, which makes me just like everyone else. Also, helping others at all costs, always being there for people who need me, and all that stuff. As for relationships with others, it might help if I actually had a good friend, instead of "fake" friends, who only talk to me when the need something, or want to feel better about themselves by being around me. Which brings me to my next point.
Finally, I'm seriously thinking about moving. Far enough from the parentals to were I can do what I want, with out always looking over my shoulder knowing either my mother or father are watching, judging me, making me feel horrible. Hell, it's seriously not like I'll be at that "home" for a long time anyway. With my busy schedule, I'll be there long enough to nap, and grab a quick bite to eat. Although, I probably won't move out until I either A)Promote at Target or B)Find a much better job that makes me lots more money that I make at Target.
I do miss you guys, and for the...I think it's around four readers I have, I hope lifes good for ya at the moment.
MY PHONE BROKE *pouts*!!! No texting for me...and on top of that, my front screen cracked! I don't know how either of them happened. The front screen just up and cracked, no scratches on the surface, no cracks, no nothing. The phone company doesn't know what's wrong with my text messaging, so I guess I get to just buy a new phone. Each costing well over $200, which kinda pissed me off.
Other than that, everything else is still the same. Mother is driving me up a wall, and also driving me to drink. Pretty soon, I'll need to schedule everything around my AA meetings instead of work and school. Also, I've been thinking about my "purpose", what "makes me me", and where I'm heading with what few (bad) relationships are going. My purpose, mainly, is to be the eternal shoulder to cry on. Be suckered into always helping people, being used in the process, realize I'm being used, but keep helping. I hate it, I'm SUCH a fucking push-over sometimes. What makes me who I am would be all of my flaws, being unique from everyone else, which makes me just like everyone else. Also, helping others at all costs, always being there for people who need me, and all that stuff. As for relationships with others, it might help if I actually had a good friend, instead of "fake" friends, who only talk to me when the need something, or want to feel better about themselves by being around me. Which brings me to my next point.
Finally, I'm seriously thinking about moving. Far enough from the parentals to were I can do what I want, with out always looking over my shoulder knowing either my mother or father are watching, judging me, making me feel horrible. Hell, it's seriously not like I'll be at that "home" for a long time anyway. With my busy schedule, I'll be there long enough to nap, and grab a quick bite to eat. Although, I probably won't move out until I either A)Promote at Target or B)Find a much better job that makes me lots more money that I make at Target.
I do miss you guys, and for the...I think it's around four readers I have, I hope lifes good for ya at the moment.