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i had a very nice day. i like small talk.
i spend lots of time talking to my mom, but mother and son talks don't go very far. i talk with kyuha, but it's never very serious. i would like to have somebody else i could talk to on the phone now and then. and that reminds me:
when somebody said i should get a foreign girlfriend, i had to think that i'm very hopeless about girls, as far as girlfriends go, and i haven't had any passion about it since i came here. i had it every few months in high school. this special girl would have to be nice, and i haven't met one nice person in columbia that i didn't know before. but, i shouldn't say things like that about those people. i'm not very nice either.
i want to be a nice person, but i can't control myself. it is hard to say and do some things. but, i want to say and do them, and i should. sometimes i don't say or do anything. other times i don't say or do enough. and, sometimes, i don't make any sense, and i'm just crazy. i'm disappointed with myself because i don't want to be like my dad. he never knows what he's talking about. he's crazy.
it's too late to go running.
i spend lots of time talking to my mom, but mother and son talks don't go very far. i talk with kyuha, but it's never very serious. i would like to have somebody else i could talk to on the phone now and then. and that reminds me:
when somebody said i should get a foreign girlfriend, i had to think that i'm very hopeless about girls, as far as girlfriends go, and i haven't had any passion about it since i came here. i had it every few months in high school. this special girl would have to be nice, and i haven't met one nice person in columbia that i didn't know before. but, i shouldn't say things like that about those people. i'm not very nice either.
i want to be a nice person, but i can't control myself. it is hard to say and do some things. but, i want to say and do them, and i should. sometimes i don't say or do anything. other times i don't say or do enough. and, sometimes, i don't make any sense, and i'm just crazy. i'm disappointed with myself because i don't want to be like my dad. he never knows what he's talking about. he's crazy.
it's too late to go running.