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yeah so once again james said he was going to stay with me from 6-11 yeah he left before 7. im so tired of it. it was not his fault his dad was goin to eaton and zach said he wouldnt take him tonight so if he didnt go with his dad he would be stuck here... i only wonder how long his knew, he didnt tell me untill 4:30 and thats when i asked him about what we were going to do, if i didnt ask he wound not have told me until i got home at 6 that he was going to leave me in 30 min, i have a feeling that zach told him he was not goin to take him home awhile ago.
He told me last night that he is goin to new orleans to help clean up or something he gets paid 150 a day but he says he willbe there for 3 weeks, but he doesnt even know that. i think its dumb its dangerous down there but he doesnt care he is goin to get down there and something is going to happen and he will get stuck down there, he didnt ask me or anything. it makes me mad that he just makes up his mind without me like it doesnt matter to me and its not goin to effect me in anyway.. well honey its goin to effect me way more than you!!
O and i had the whole weekend planned and james decideds to tell me that sat he is goin to play football, so that is gay to tell me now, but i really dont care because he should be done by 12 and i LOVE watching him play!
So i think i have decided that im taking james to something haunted friday, well have the football sat morning, then afternoon were goin to a pumpkin patch and goin to crave em that night and make dinner and watch scary movies by the fire..... and sunday the football game.. i feel bad for not taking him to the bled concert for his birthday since that is what he wants but i want this and i should get to go but james doesnt work so he doesnt have money so its not fair so he doesnt get to go now, it would be different if we had to the money and he had a job but little o me cant afford me and him. tickets are 16.50 by thats darn charge times 2 plus gas, times 10000 that i would rather go do the halloween stuff!!!
Its a rainy day this morning when i got to school i just sat in my truck and watched the rain and listened to our wedding song, it was so nice, i just sat there for a long time thinking about how much james means to me and how i love him more than anything......
I have to go finish my scans -TONYA