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Today is my last day of night school.. 3 hours left! i have to take my final exam YES!
So me and james are going to take a little break ha ha not even really a break i just need some time to think about us... im to selfish for this relationship and i dont know what im going to do, i cant take calling him and waiting to be with him and being sad because of it and he is out having fun and not thinking about me or caring!! I had this great news to tell him and i called to tell him and he didnt answer because he was to busy eating dinner with josh and sonya, who he already see more than me... but he says he loves me more... crazy huh
I got into this college in California i forget what it is called but it has sign language and its only 1 hour and 6 min from the college james wants to go too. i was so happy i wanted to tell james so freaken bad but he didnt care he was so busy for me. i worked on trying to find stuff out about it so long and hard yesterday, but now im kinda feeling like fuck it and dont even want to go i might just stay around here it will be so cheaper and james wont gave a shit anyway. My mom would be happier to, maybe me and james need to go our own ways for awhile atleast for college, and maybe after we will get back together and if not o well he never loved me anyway. i try so freaken hard for him and it gets me no where im not doing it anymore! its just hard because I do love him more than anything!