The Return of Tony
Today I woke up, and I was me again.
No faking it. No labored attempts at acting whimsical and fun. No lapses into despair when talking about some harmless topic.
Just me.
I still don't know what was wrong with me 3 years ago. I don't know why she left, I don't know if I fixed it, I don't know if I ever will, but today I realize it doesn't matter.
I apologize to anyone and everyone who I may have said mean things to in the last 3 to 4 years, they were likely directed at myself, or at the very least meant to isolate me.
I jogged a mile today, in 2 segments, once before work and once after. I'm hopping that within two weeks I can get that up to 2 miles, and I'll see where it goes from there.
I also have a date this weekend. I hope it goes well, but I'm not pinning my hopes on it. I know that if we don't hit it off, I can start cruising the bars and playing "Have you met Josh?" and its spin-off, "Ted Mosby, Architect!"
My only fear is that Tony's spending habits are not good. With his return I don't know if I'll ever get out of this hole. But at least I'll be having fun again.
(Okay, so I went to check if the song I decided to put in my music line had a video, and it sure does...and part of me wants to spare other living humans from this, but part of me admits that this hair has to be seen to be believed. This song was off of Sting's album "Mercury Falling" which was, by all accounts, a Country album. But seriously...WTF is up with his hair? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8VsenuJqZP4 )
No faking it. No labored attempts at acting whimsical and fun. No lapses into despair when talking about some harmless topic.
Just me.
I still don't know what was wrong with me 3 years ago. I don't know why she left, I don't know if I fixed it, I don't know if I ever will, but today I realize it doesn't matter.
I apologize to anyone and everyone who I may have said mean things to in the last 3 to 4 years, they were likely directed at myself, or at the very least meant to isolate me.
I jogged a mile today, in 2 segments, once before work and once after. I'm hopping that within two weeks I can get that up to 2 miles, and I'll see where it goes from there.
I also have a date this weekend. I hope it goes well, but I'm not pinning my hopes on it. I know that if we don't hit it off, I can start cruising the bars and playing "Have you met Josh?" and its spin-off, "Ted Mosby, Architect!"
My only fear is that Tony's spending habits are not good. With his return I don't know if I'll ever get out of this hole. But at least I'll be having fun again.
(Okay, so I went to check if the song I decided to put in my music line had a video, and it sure does...and part of me wants to spare other living humans from this, but part of me admits that this hair has to be seen to be believed. This song was off of Sting's album "Mercury Falling" which was, by all accounts, a Country album. But seriously...WTF is up with his hair? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8VsenuJqZP4 )