Short days...Long Nights

[tontonbonbon]

I am in a pissy ass mood right now. I just had one of my infamous kickbacks at my house on Sat night, and of course everyone got fucked up! I was doin whatever i was doin and smokin so i was gone...and Samantha was drinking! I guess she thinks that sometimes i can be a bitch or snap at her, but i dont even realize that i do it! Shes my best friend and i love her to death...I'm even movin out to Santa Barbara and dorming with her! We usually never argue, but 2nite was different. Apparantly i was just being a bitch the whole night and i have been bitchy to her past times as well. I know that it is no excuse, but i was not having a good night. I was feelin like shit, i was mentally, physically,and emotionally drained, and i have so much shit on my mind. I know this is going to sound horrible, but i hate seeing people around me having a good time when i am so down. And i feel bad cuz i AM bitter and sour when i'm in one of my moods. Anyway, so were just kinda yelling at eachother (which felt horrible) then she started lookin for her purse all over my house and she left. I cant believe she left! She didnt even try to talk it out or anything! I feel like shit and i will be feeling shitty until Sam and i resolve this. I really have to work on my attitude and moods. They r such a turn off. ~~NEW TOPIC~~. I called American Eagle Outfitters at like 6:30 p.m. and Scott which, was the guy who interviewed us, answered the phone and i told him it was me and he remembered me and he was really cool. Then i asked if anything was going on with the job and he said something about someonenot being able to call me cuz its been hectic and busy, but to expect a call on Monday or Tuesday! I'm soo excited! I hope i got it! Well i'm gonna go and TRY to rest! Wish me luck!
xo tahnny xo

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