Grief, Round 2
I'm not quite sure how I'm doing right now. I can't really put it into words. We've had some family over for the past couple nights, and that's nice...but it's so weird. Patrick and I were cleaning up some stuff in the garage and it made me a bit sad because that's where he ran his business and made everything. Two nights in a row now, whenever dinner is ready, I keep looking around for him to tell him dinner's ready. And then whenever we're all sitting around talking...something is missing. Dad is missing.
I'm not sure when this is all going to hit me. We have a meeting at the funeral home/crematorium in the morning. Then we're going to pick out the flowers for the service.
I'm still unable to comprehend that both of my parents are gone. It still feels like Dad is still down at the hospital and we can go and see him. Alas, that is not so.
I'm just going to go ahead and apologize to Chris and Sean right now as they will have to put up with crazy me as I deal with all of this shit that has been thrown my way. I just want something in life to go my way for a change.
I know...me, me, me, me, me.
Deal with it.
I'm not sure when this is all going to hit me. We have a meeting at the funeral home/crematorium in the morning. Then we're going to pick out the flowers for the service.
I'm still unable to comprehend that both of my parents are gone. It still feels like Dad is still down at the hospital and we can go and see him. Alas, that is not so.
I'm just going to go ahead and apologize to Chris and Sean right now as they will have to put up with crazy me as I deal with all of this shit that has been thrown my way. I just want something in life to go my way for a change.
I know...me, me, me, me, me.
Deal with it.