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[tonsafun]

now i'm pondering here for a minute...what if i dropped out of school?

i could get a job
get a car
attend another school with means i can stand
get away from all of this horseshit
no more stress(school stress)
no more absences
no more getting called out of class to be reminded that i'm not graduating
no more schedule during weekdays(when i could have a full time job)
no more learning how to do nothing but tedious busy work
no more teachers helping athletes and "A" students and not me
no more tardy roundup
no more waking up
no more life as of right now
school is my life...so without it, this "me" would be dead
more time for the band
more time to get shit straightened out

what do i lose? an oppurtunity to go to college right away(which i can't do anyway),a diploma, and a chance to see people i know everyday...

fuck college, there is no way i'm getting in,or, if that, learning anything when i get there.

There’s not somewhere out there for all of us. There’s not someone out there for all of us. There’s just about nothing out there for all of us.

i'm getting what i deserve. absolutely fucking nothing. You know that shit they spit at you in elementary school about how "everyone's special and if you try your hardest, everything will turn out alright"

let me put it this way...we need to stop lying to our fucking kids....that way the harsh truth isn't such a hurtful rude awakening as it has been for me. i hope everything works out for all of you...and i don't want to get up on a cross here..so i think i'll just let you all say what you will say.

what do you think i should do?
i'm so very tired

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