Fucked up Day
Rarely do I make a personal entry, but today has been so fucked up that I feel I need to vent somewhere.
My high school sweetheart hung himself last night. He was the greatest of guys when I dated him, of course that has been about 13 years ago... I'm just still in shock about it. He had been going through a divorce and had been on alot of meds (all prescription btw) that had messed up his head. But, I still just can't believe that fun-loving guy that I dated for almost 2 years of his life, would do this. He and my husband were still pretty good friends and talked quite often. I just don't understand why anyone would kill themselves!! I don't know weither to be sad, angry or just be blah about it. And now, I've got to go to the visitation and see his mother, who never liked me. No woman was ever good enough for her son, that played a big part in why we split. But, sitll.. he was the first guy I ever truely fell head over heels in love with, and now its gone. And the worst part of it is that he left a 4 year old son behind who will now grow up without his real father. Its just fucked up I tell you!!
My high school sweetheart hung himself last night. He was the greatest of guys when I dated him, of course that has been about 13 years ago... I'm just still in shock about it. He had been going through a divorce and had been on alot of meds (all prescription btw) that had messed up his head. But, I still just can't believe that fun-loving guy that I dated for almost 2 years of his life, would do this. He and my husband were still pretty good friends and talked quite often. I just don't understand why anyone would kill themselves!! I don't know weither to be sad, angry or just be blah about it. And now, I've got to go to the visitation and see his mother, who never liked me. No woman was ever good enough for her son, that played a big part in why we split. But, sitll.. he was the first guy I ever truely fell head over heels in love with, and now its gone. And the worst part of it is that he left a 4 year old son behind who will now grow up without his real father. Its just fucked up I tell you!!