to beautiful to last
Ooook.. I have no idea why i even write in this.. Does anyone even read them? I do sometimes.. but I guess i just am because i have ALOT on my mind and I just need to get it out of my head! I feel like i sort of abandoned and avoided all reality this summer. I spent almost every single day and night with kayla, nick, rodney, and tyler when he was here. I had no responsibilities, no curfew, no limits, no fears. Just had a ton of fun being stupid with the people who shared my imature summer. And as much as i feel I abandoned all responsibilties i was honestly happy! No matirial things.. just screwing off, being stupid and immature. And its coming to an end and i feel like i took it all for granted, and i dont want my old responsibilities back. And to my friends at school who i basically blew off, and Ashley, and Lindsey, and Kayle, and Chris, and who ever else i did not see this summer.. i am sorry. And I love you all the same as i always did! And I will admit i am still enjoying myself here, in my "escape". And i still dont want to come home. But at the same time i miss you all! does that make sense? because when i talked to stevie she told me she felt liek we where all drifting appart.. but to me.. its like i am just doing my own thing.. enjoying my vacation... And when i do come home.. everything will be the same.. So you can call me if you wanna talk! i am still always here for you! I am having fun1 and i hope you are too! chances are i miss you. so call me if you want to! 7*5*0*3*9*9*4!~ ex oh-----ToNi LyNn*