"i feel like ive been gone forever.."
im battling with ups and downs.
i understand how things have to be, and i understand the different way we act
but missing the past is inevitable...some of my favorite memories have happened within the past 5 months. Things do seem to be on a moderately good track, progressing slowly; however, when blessed with something beautiful i find difficulty in letting the days pass. I am not working right now, so a lot of my day is devoted to thinking about everything that is going on. It makes my situation a lot harder, yes. but it is really good, i need as much time to think as possible. i need to be able to hate everything for spurts of time, and find a smile in the strangest places. i need to see what has to happen within myself.
i wish i had all my old pictures, they would really help
im going to fix things, im going to re-emerge.
i've made friends along these couple of months, and really good friends at that. Most of all i've made a best friend. I'm becoming very appreciative.
(Joe's cymbals are a bit of a setback right now, i feel really bad) (if you have them, bring them back, or suffer idel's wrath)....
i understand how things have to be, and i understand the different way we act
but missing the past is inevitable...some of my favorite memories have happened within the past 5 months. Things do seem to be on a moderately good track, progressing slowly; however, when blessed with something beautiful i find difficulty in letting the days pass. I am not working right now, so a lot of my day is devoted to thinking about everything that is going on. It makes my situation a lot harder, yes. but it is really good, i need as much time to think as possible. i need to be able to hate everything for spurts of time, and find a smile in the strangest places. i need to see what has to happen within myself.
i wish i had all my old pictures, they would really help
im going to fix things, im going to re-emerge.
i've made friends along these couple of months, and really good friends at that. Most of all i've made a best friend. I'm becoming very appreciative.
(Joe's cymbals are a bit of a setback right now, i feel really bad) (if you have them, bring them back, or suffer idel's wrath)....