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I'm home now, back to reality, school, work, and mom bitching constantly. *sigh* and i really thought i missed the place?
looked at my grades last night and got a D+ in Chemistry. Thats the worst grade I have ever gotten. I was pretty upset about it, but decided, "whats the use in crying over it if you can't do a damn about it?" oh well better luck next time, right? I have SO much make up work to do and most of it I haven't the slightest clue of what to do...we'll see how that turns out for me. Only 8 more weeks of school and I'm out of this bitch. I can't wait for summer just to have the freedom from this shit hole.
My dad bought tickets to Boston...along with a new truck and he's remodeling his place....but wait he's poor, right? Anyway, Boston is June 17. I'm really excited because it will be a nice vacation...going on the Cape for a few days and the beach is really where I long to be right now.
It's weird going to bed everynight for two weeks with someone holding you and waking up with that same person still by your side giving you the most amazing look when you wake up. Then one night you go to bed and you're all alone and you haven't the slightest clue when it will be back to the amazing feeling of arms being wrapped around you out of pure love. Sucks. I'm eating myself alive with being alone. Some evilness inside me is just sitting there when I think "Oh I'll be with him again soon" and "Everything will be okay," and then this little demon pops up and is like "oh come on caylen get real, you're going to be alone for weeks before you get to see him so quit trying to make yourself feel better." What a bitch.
This goodbye was better than the first eventhough no goodbye with him is even close to being on the good side. But it did end up a lot easier to deal with just because I know we'll be together again for another season of memories.
'till then....*sigh*
looked at my grades last night and got a D+ in Chemistry. Thats the worst grade I have ever gotten. I was pretty upset about it, but decided, "whats the use in crying over it if you can't do a damn about it?" oh well better luck next time, right? I have SO much make up work to do and most of it I haven't the slightest clue of what to do...we'll see how that turns out for me. Only 8 more weeks of school and I'm out of this bitch. I can't wait for summer just to have the freedom from this shit hole.
My dad bought tickets to Boston...along with a new truck and he's remodeling his place....but wait he's poor, right? Anyway, Boston is June 17. I'm really excited because it will be a nice vacation...going on the Cape for a few days and the beach is really where I long to be right now.
It's weird going to bed everynight for two weeks with someone holding you and waking up with that same person still by your side giving you the most amazing look when you wake up. Then one night you go to bed and you're all alone and you haven't the slightest clue when it will be back to the amazing feeling of arms being wrapped around you out of pure love. Sucks. I'm eating myself alive with being alone. Some evilness inside me is just sitting there when I think "Oh I'll be with him again soon" and "Everything will be okay," and then this little demon pops up and is like "oh come on caylen get real, you're going to be alone for weeks before you get to see him so quit trying to make yourself feel better." What a bitch.
This goodbye was better than the first eventhough no goodbye with him is even close to being on the good side. But it did end up a lot easier to deal with just because I know we'll be together again for another season of memories.
'till then....*sigh*