Fortune's Fool
Oh, damn. I'm in a bad way.
I've known a friend of mine, who I've known for about a year. I got up here tuesday, and went to see her Thursday. Five days later, I swear I'm in love. I've never felt like this. It's horrible, and I know better, but I can't help it. I couldn't have made her more perfect if I'd have made her myself. I'd give my right arm for this girl, and would give up my other "lady friends" for her. I don't know how it happened, but I've fallen hard.
There's only two catches: I can't and won't have a sexual relationship with her for a few years, at least, if at all. She's a bit young for me (older than 14, younger than 18), and so I can't legally touch her, but she's also so sweet, and so pure (in my eyes), that I can't bring myself to even try it (even though she's so gorgeous it hurts to think about going home). Besides, her parents love me, and trust me, and I can't do that to them.
Every time a deity sends me a life-changing course, it's always at the end of a long car-trip.
Friends? Please help me. I need some guidance in my life from folks who have been there, and I've never felt so lost about a girl. I never felt like this before, even with my ex of three years. I need someone to talk to me, and tell me that I've lost my mind, or to tell me that I need to ride it out.
I've known a friend of mine, who I've known for about a year. I got up here tuesday, and went to see her Thursday. Five days later, I swear I'm in love. I've never felt like this. It's horrible, and I know better, but I can't help it. I couldn't have made her more perfect if I'd have made her myself. I'd give my right arm for this girl, and would give up my other "lady friends" for her. I don't know how it happened, but I've fallen hard.
There's only two catches: I can't and won't have a sexual relationship with her for a few years, at least, if at all. She's a bit young for me (older than 14, younger than 18), and so I can't legally touch her, but she's also so sweet, and so pure (in my eyes), that I can't bring myself to even try it (even though she's so gorgeous it hurts to think about going home). Besides, her parents love me, and trust me, and I can't do that to them.
Every time a deity sends me a life-changing course, it's always at the end of a long car-trip.
Friends? Please help me. I need some guidance in my life from folks who have been there, and I've never felt so lost about a girl. I never felt like this before, even with my ex of three years. I need someone to talk to me, and tell me that I've lost my mind, or to tell me that I need to ride it out.