ficlets; various pairings.
This is how I procrastinate.
Overall over 2,000 words. Pairings; KiHae, KangTeuk, ShiHan, KiChul, ShinMin, ShinChul, KangChul, HyukSu, Hyuk/everybody, OT13.
edit: wow I can't html, sorry guys.
There are 11 because I was listening to an album and thought I'd write ficlets inspired by lines of lyrics. However, the fics don't really seem to match their prompts so I won't quote 'em.
Oh, and if you want to make me write I'm doing a meme thingy.
no use for heaven
kangin/eeteuk, pg-13.
Perfection is overrated. Eeteuk talks the big talk on television, how the group will improve themselves, work hard towards presenting a new image, and then the moment they go off the air, his shoulders sink a little (posture is for cameras) and Heechul will lean in and mock his words. He grins and Eunhyuk laughs, because it is funny, this industry with all its bullshit circling endlessly.
None of them have girlfriends. All of them are picture-perfect, clean and wholesome, pure as wheatbread or rice (no flavor, no rough edges). All of them are straight. Right.
It is how it is, with Kangin's breath against his neck, and he's as fake as they all are, begging the world for the attention he thinks of as rightfully his. The fuck's it matter, all their flaws, starting from Kibum's quick temper and ending with Kangin's nicotine everything, at least it's real. At least something about them is.
Kangin kisses him tasting like food and ash, and Eeteuk loves it, and in the back of his head can hear himself citing crap about smoking hazards, “please study hard”, some he means and most he doesn't, and as long as he keeps the fantasy perfect, he can keep the reality to himself.
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AN: Plz to be ignoring my ridiculous cynicism. :D
in just three minutes
kibum/heechul, pg-13.
Kibum is quiet, not because he's shy or anything, but because he doesn't consider many people worth the effort to make the contact, say this or that, talk shit, small talk. He doesn't really get it.
Heechul reads him in a second, though, that passive air of cool and that surprised look on his face when he sees Heechul for the first time, as if he's not sure what to think. Heechul likes him already.
He doesn't have a match in Kibum because he hardly has a match in anybody, but Kibum is close enough, pretty enough. He sheds his arrogance in front of Heechul, and becomes a genuinely great guy. He admires Heechul as a hyung, but not the point of it being annoying, and Heechul sometimes wonders, that friggin' perfect skin under his finger tips, images of sex, Kibum slack-jawed and panting, but then pushes it away.
There are smiles Kibum doesn't let the camera see, and for Heechul to see them, sometimes that's just enough.
---
miles away
kangin/heechul (hankyung/heechul), r.
Hankyung is in China. Heechul is fine with this, nowadays they have internet and mobile phones and everything perfect and modern and he is not going to miss Hankyung that much, this much.
“What the fuck,” Youngwoon mumbles sleepily as Heechul crawls into his bed, drunk and in need of a fix, a fix of anything.
The first time he kissed Youngwoon, he was drunk, too, but not like this, not this heart-broken and pathetic and even though Youngwoon struggles, says no, curses and gets angry, he always gives in by the end. He's there, after all, he's always been there.
Youngwoon probably knows, not that he needs to, it's nothing to him how much he loves Hankyung, just like it's nothing to him how much Youngwoon loves anyone. If Youngwoon loves anyone.
Heechul never really bothers to ask.
“Are you done?” Youngwoon asks him with a tone that says 'go away', but Heechul knows he doesn't mean it, and even as the post-release high fades, he stays beneath Youngwoon's blanket.
He falls asleep with that thought looping in his head, 'if Youngwoon loves anybody', and he has a vague sense of somebody petting his hair as he loses consciousness.
Maybe he just doesn't want to know.
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AN: Yeah, for somebody who doesn't like Heechul I sure write him a shitload. Also, I totally hate this fic cliche of X being desperate for Y so shags Z instead but ehhh I guess I had to use it here.
comfort
shindong/sungmin, pg.
Shindong doesn't change. Sungmin knows this because he is counting on it.
He himself changes shades, he flips and rolls and changes his mind and turns his head every day, hour, minute.
Ryeowook called it moody, beneath his breath, that one time Sungmin annoyed him and Eeteuk agreed, silently, the other time Sungmin offended him.
This is okay, everything is, but Donghee is always there, and Donghee always knows. Not that he's great at reading people, or reading Sungmin, but in his presence Sungmin cannot have the energy to be snappy, to be anything but the center of Donghee's attention.
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now and then some more
hyukjae/junsu, pg.
Eunhyuk likes Yoochun, and Yunho, and Jaejoong and even Changmin, during whatever small conversation they once had.
He likes the best friends of his best friend, and Junsu likes the fact that he likes them, and everything is fine and they practise Show Me Your Love dance for the fourteenth time. Everything is just shiny fine perfect until Junsu pulls Eunhyuk aside and kisses him, not joking this time, no grin afterwards.
“We're still us, right?” Junsu asks.
“What..” Eunhyuk manages, feeling his heart beat faster, “o-of course..”
“We'll always be us,” Junsu says, more to himself than anything else and then smiles, finally, and Eunhyuk sighs in relief, and Junsu kisses him again, lighter this time. Less satisfying, something in the back of Eunhyuk's head says, but he's not thinking it any further. This is Junsu.
Always. Such a tiny word to tie them together.
---
AN: What's life without a little Hyuksu?
see-through
shindong/heechul, pg.
It doesn't happen in an instant, things rarely do in Donghee's world. First impressions are false and misleading, deeper impressions take time and he takes that time to make them. Whenever he cares.
With Heechul he doesn't care, quick to draw his own conclusions about the other one, but it catches up to him.
Heechul refuses to go unnoticed and Donghee feels the eyes on himself, not burning or boring but rather observing, taking him in. He knows he's probably not worth the attention but enjoys it anyhow, until Heechul works his way into Donghee's life, as Donghee's friend, until he's calling Heechul up for lunch, dinner, breakfast.
He doesn't care, he tells himself, but first impressions are false and deeper impressions can be surprising, and he can talk to Heechul for hours, and listen to Heechul for hours, too, even though they both have dearer friends, more compatible partners. Even though he doesn't love Heechul or anything.
At least he thinks he doesn't, as Heechul's delicate fingers stroke his collar gently, a bit too silly, a bit too drunk, a bit too ..
“Hyung, I--” Donghee begins and doesn't get to finish, Heechul's lips pressing against his, softly.
Donghee pulls away eventually, dizzy and delirious and wondering where the shit he dropped that heterosexuality he swore by all those years.
Heechul grins stupidly, and just then Donghee knows he's made an impression. Sometimes taking the time is well worth it.
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AN: I FINALLY FICCED SHINCHUL SEMI PROPERLY WINNNNN.
that thread of logic somewhere
kibum/donghae, r.
Donghae gets a little weird in the head, he'll be the first to admit this. The world out there is strange, full of things, full of connections to be made, so if he makes the wrong connections, how is that crazy, exactly, how? So when he talks to Kibum about pygmis who could never grow old because their parents were fairies, that might sound a little crazy but it's not like Kibum understands, because he doesn't live inside Donghae's head.
Only Donghae does. Only Donghae gets it.
But he'd like somebody to understand, and Kibum seems like a good candidate, since Kibum seems to listen.
“Hyung,” Kibum says, after listening, very slowly as if Donghae didn't know Korean at all, “why are you rubbing my thigh?”
It's funny, Donghae didn't even pick up on the fact until now, and he thinks about pygmi children, and fairies, and then sees how creepy that probably seems so in a rush of panic, he kisses Kibum to make him forget about the pygmi children and the fairies, and it seems to work.
With Kibum naked and panting, skin red from bite marks, he probably doesn't have the time to think about how weird Donghae is. And anyway, Donghae really likes Kibum, likes Kibum like this, and the fact Kibum listens, and now Kibum moves his head but misses the pillow by an inch or two.
“Why..” Kibum begins, sounding exhausted, “do you think the pygmis never grow old?”
“Dancing,” Donghae answers, matter-of-factly.
“I think fairy genes.” Kibum closes his eyes. “I think I may have my share.”
Donghae laughs.
“I'm actually 88 years old,” Kibum says.
“Ew,” Donghae replies, lying down next to him. “I can't believe I slept with a pygmi.”
Kibum sighs and runs his hand down Donghae's side. “Hyung..” he mumbles, and then says nothing, falling asleep.
Donghae stares at Kibum for what may be hours, and thinks about planets with no exhaust pipes, and how much he loves Kibum.
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AN: I'll be the first one to admit some of these are rushed and crappy but I just sdkfgskdfg love this ficlet. I always struggle to bring KiHae awesome out of Prison!AU but in here I feel it genuinely works somehow. And it's not even really all that ooc, I hope.
me vs the truth
eunhyuk/everybody, pg-13.
Eunhyuk has never imagined two or more Wonder Girls members in bed together, and Eunhyuk has never masturbated in the KBS studio bathrooms right before Kiss the Radio, and Eunhyuk has never heard Eeteuk doing the same thing.
Eunhyuk has never admired the curve of Sungmin's lower back, and Eunhyuk has never wanted to be treated as well as Shindong treats his girlfriends. Eunhyuk has never lied about dating when Kangin asked, just because of the way Kangin was staring at him, and Eunhyuk has never been uncomfortable with Heechul, for whatever reason.
Eunhyuk has never kissed Donghae for a bet or seen Yesung naked. Eunhyuk has never secretly wished he was in Big Bang and Eunhyuk has never called Tablo's home phone at 3 AM to listen to his answering machine message.
Eunhyuk has never wanted to be hugged by Siwon more, and Eunhyuk has never told Junsu he loves him earnestly, teary-eyed, clinging-holding-touching as if dying.
That is, should anybody ask. And if they ever do, Eunhyuk knows the smile he would smile, his hands waving dismissively. Aniyo.
He's a very boring person, really.
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AN: Aniyo = no in Korean, in case you didn't know. This ficlet BECAUSE I LOVE HYUK SO MUCH OMG. And I believe he loves the world, too.
find a way
siwon/hankyung, pg.
Siwon is unnecessarily coy about his looks, and his Chinese. Both are good, even great at times, to be envied if Han Geng was the type to envy anything or anybody.
Siwon is pure, and honest, and so breath-taking Han Geng isn't sure how he ever manages. Most of the time, he probably doesn't, smiling with intention, touching with more intention and if Siwon knows, he's not letting it show.
Heechul knows, because Heechul always knows even with no language to tell him anything like way back then, and Geng thinks it's quite annoying that Heechul always knows.
He draws away intentionally and Siwon does notice, and paws him more than ever, hands and limbs and soft laughter against Geng's shoulder as they hug.
Siwon just doesn't want to lose anybody. As if he ever could, Geng thinks sadly, and stops his hands from extending any touch for too long, catching Heechul staring at them from the corner of his eye.
“Love you,” Siwon mumbles and probably doesn't hear his sigh.
“Thank you,” he replies in Mandarin, smiling and there's no hunger eating him inside, really, really.
--
AN: Ohhh why did ShiHan not make out in this. :( IDEK. Siwon stop being a fucking virgin. Gah.
give me fire
kangin/eeteuk, r.
You're supposed to buy her presents, call her thrice a day, leave messages, text her every chance you get, schmoopy things, stupid things. Love love love devotion love until all the words repeat themselves, until they don't mean shit, until there is a vague commitment, a love for love, no desire to see anybody for what they really are.
So if you refuse to buy into it, for fuck's sake, and dump her, just for that, and suddenly she pleads, “Oppa, let's work it out.”
Oppa. All the expectations she bleeds into that one fucking word. You just don't want it any more.
There is always somebody, though, somebody to think about when rubbing your cock and somebody to rub your cock for you, you just didn't think they were right there all along, his fantastic smile against your navel as his teeth bite and nibble and it was never this with anybody, it was never this awkward and perfect and your fingers tangled in his hair until the stupid little ponytail comes untied.
He doesn't require flowers or chocolates, so you do just that, you call and message, and he laughs, and you love that, you love that and feed on that, which is stupid. It's just great sex. Your libido should not rule you like this.
Eeteuk is yours, and you didn't even have to try, and maybe you're just really lazy, or maybe that's exactly why it's so perfect.
--
downsides of dormitories
ot13, r.
Years and years and years later, there is no Super Junior and they don't really know what the words mean any more, but they're still there. Separate and together, scattered and still in touch, and if there's anything they have in common, it's that none of them talk about That Night.
None of them are sure how That Night began. There was booze, and there was ..well, it was mostly just booze. Everybody was especially happy for whatever reason. Some a little too happy, and then there was the Game, which was a very crappy drinking game for it involved more kissing than drinking.
Some of them only remember the evening as far as kissing went. Kyuhyun blanked out after Sungmin introduced the idea of licking whatever alcohol anybody spilled on themselves, down their chins, into their shirts. Kangin remembers what happened beyond that but wishes he didn't. Eunhyuk insists all he did with Eeteuk was dance. Shindong is sure he was in bed by then (Heechul knows for a fact he wasn't). Donghae has memories of having lint in his mouth and a vague sensation of somebody's hand against him, Yesung remembers knees digging into the carpet, Ryeowook thanks Lord he has blocked out the details, Siwon just hates the fact his first time wasn't with the girl he'd eventually marry (if he would, That Night almost made me think). Hankyung was in China, but sadly for him, there are phones, and there are even camera phones and there is something he is sure he will never ever ever do again.
But That Night happened, and is in the past and they never discuss it, just like they never discuss That Other Night or That Time the Bathroom Lock Was Broken or That Time Yesung Got a Camcorder.
All things considered, it really is best this way.
---
AN: IDEK IDEK IDEK IDEK OMFG I DID NOT JUST WRITE THAT.
DLFJDFJKHGDJ
What is done is done. Ahem, excuse me while I go feel dirty.
Overall over 2,000 words. Pairings; KiHae, KangTeuk, ShiHan, KiChul, ShinMin, ShinChul, KangChul, HyukSu, Hyuk/everybody, OT13.
edit: wow I can't html, sorry guys.
There are 11 because I was listening to an album and thought I'd write ficlets inspired by lines of lyrics. However, the fics don't really seem to match their prompts so I won't quote 'em.
Oh, and if you want to make me write I'm doing a meme thingy.
no use for heaven
kangin/eeteuk, pg-13.
Perfection is overrated. Eeteuk talks the big talk on television, how the group will improve themselves, work hard towards presenting a new image, and then the moment they go off the air, his shoulders sink a little (posture is for cameras) and Heechul will lean in and mock his words. He grins and Eunhyuk laughs, because it is funny, this industry with all its bullshit circling endlessly.
None of them have girlfriends. All of them are picture-perfect, clean and wholesome, pure as wheatbread or rice (no flavor, no rough edges). All of them are straight. Right.
It is how it is, with Kangin's breath against his neck, and he's as fake as they all are, begging the world for the attention he thinks of as rightfully his. The fuck's it matter, all their flaws, starting from Kibum's quick temper and ending with Kangin's nicotine everything, at least it's real. At least something about them is.
Kangin kisses him tasting like food and ash, and Eeteuk loves it, and in the back of his head can hear himself citing crap about smoking hazards, “please study hard”, some he means and most he doesn't, and as long as he keeps the fantasy perfect, he can keep the reality to himself.
--
AN: Plz to be ignoring my ridiculous cynicism. :D
in just three minutes
kibum/heechul, pg-13.
Kibum is quiet, not because he's shy or anything, but because he doesn't consider many people worth the effort to make the contact, say this or that, talk shit, small talk. He doesn't really get it.
Heechul reads him in a second, though, that passive air of cool and that surprised look on his face when he sees Heechul for the first time, as if he's not sure what to think. Heechul likes him already.
He doesn't have a match in Kibum because he hardly has a match in anybody, but Kibum is close enough, pretty enough. He sheds his arrogance in front of Heechul, and becomes a genuinely great guy. He admires Heechul as a hyung, but not the point of it being annoying, and Heechul sometimes wonders, that friggin' perfect skin under his finger tips, images of sex, Kibum slack-jawed and panting, but then pushes it away.
There are smiles Kibum doesn't let the camera see, and for Heechul to see them, sometimes that's just enough.
---
miles away
kangin/heechul (hankyung/heechul), r.
Hankyung is in China. Heechul is fine with this, nowadays they have internet and mobile phones and everything perfect and modern and he is not going to miss Hankyung that much, this much.
“What the fuck,” Youngwoon mumbles sleepily as Heechul crawls into his bed, drunk and in need of a fix, a fix of anything.
The first time he kissed Youngwoon, he was drunk, too, but not like this, not this heart-broken and pathetic and even though Youngwoon struggles, says no, curses and gets angry, he always gives in by the end. He's there, after all, he's always been there.
Youngwoon probably knows, not that he needs to, it's nothing to him how much he loves Hankyung, just like it's nothing to him how much Youngwoon loves anyone. If Youngwoon loves anyone.
Heechul never really bothers to ask.
“Are you done?” Youngwoon asks him with a tone that says 'go away', but Heechul knows he doesn't mean it, and even as the post-release high fades, he stays beneath Youngwoon's blanket.
He falls asleep with that thought looping in his head, 'if Youngwoon loves anybody', and he has a vague sense of somebody petting his hair as he loses consciousness.
Maybe he just doesn't want to know.
---
AN: Yeah, for somebody who doesn't like Heechul I sure write him a shitload. Also, I totally hate this fic cliche of X being desperate for Y so shags Z instead but ehhh I guess I had to use it here.
comfort
shindong/sungmin, pg.
Shindong doesn't change. Sungmin knows this because he is counting on it.
He himself changes shades, he flips and rolls and changes his mind and turns his head every day, hour, minute.
Ryeowook called it moody, beneath his breath, that one time Sungmin annoyed him and Eeteuk agreed, silently, the other time Sungmin offended him.
This is okay, everything is, but Donghee is always there, and Donghee always knows. Not that he's great at reading people, or reading Sungmin, but in his presence Sungmin cannot have the energy to be snappy, to be anything but the center of Donghee's attention.
---
now and then some more
hyukjae/junsu, pg.
Eunhyuk likes Yoochun, and Yunho, and Jaejoong and even Changmin, during whatever small conversation they once had.
He likes the best friends of his best friend, and Junsu likes the fact that he likes them, and everything is fine and they practise Show Me Your Love dance for the fourteenth time. Everything is just shiny fine perfect until Junsu pulls Eunhyuk aside and kisses him, not joking this time, no grin afterwards.
“We're still us, right?” Junsu asks.
“What..” Eunhyuk manages, feeling his heart beat faster, “o-of course..”
“We'll always be us,” Junsu says, more to himself than anything else and then smiles, finally, and Eunhyuk sighs in relief, and Junsu kisses him again, lighter this time. Less satisfying, something in the back of Eunhyuk's head says, but he's not thinking it any further. This is Junsu.
Always. Such a tiny word to tie them together.
---
AN: What's life without a little Hyuksu?
see-through
shindong/heechul, pg.
It doesn't happen in an instant, things rarely do in Donghee's world. First impressions are false and misleading, deeper impressions take time and he takes that time to make them. Whenever he cares.
With Heechul he doesn't care, quick to draw his own conclusions about the other one, but it catches up to him.
Heechul refuses to go unnoticed and Donghee feels the eyes on himself, not burning or boring but rather observing, taking him in. He knows he's probably not worth the attention but enjoys it anyhow, until Heechul works his way into Donghee's life, as Donghee's friend, until he's calling Heechul up for lunch, dinner, breakfast.
He doesn't care, he tells himself, but first impressions are false and deeper impressions can be surprising, and he can talk to Heechul for hours, and listen to Heechul for hours, too, even though they both have dearer friends, more compatible partners. Even though he doesn't love Heechul or anything.
At least he thinks he doesn't, as Heechul's delicate fingers stroke his collar gently, a bit too silly, a bit too drunk, a bit too ..
“Hyung, I--” Donghee begins and doesn't get to finish, Heechul's lips pressing against his, softly.
Donghee pulls away eventually, dizzy and delirious and wondering where the shit he dropped that heterosexuality he swore by all those years.
Heechul grins stupidly, and just then Donghee knows he's made an impression. Sometimes taking the time is well worth it.
---
AN: I FINALLY FICCED SHINCHUL SEMI PROPERLY WINNNNN.
that thread of logic somewhere
kibum/donghae, r.
Donghae gets a little weird in the head, he'll be the first to admit this. The world out there is strange, full of things, full of connections to be made, so if he makes the wrong connections, how is that crazy, exactly, how? So when he talks to Kibum about pygmis who could never grow old because their parents were fairies, that might sound a little crazy but it's not like Kibum understands, because he doesn't live inside Donghae's head.
Only Donghae does. Only Donghae gets it.
But he'd like somebody to understand, and Kibum seems like a good candidate, since Kibum seems to listen.
“Hyung,” Kibum says, after listening, very slowly as if Donghae didn't know Korean at all, “why are you rubbing my thigh?”
It's funny, Donghae didn't even pick up on the fact until now, and he thinks about pygmi children, and fairies, and then sees how creepy that probably seems so in a rush of panic, he kisses Kibum to make him forget about the pygmi children and the fairies, and it seems to work.
With Kibum naked and panting, skin red from bite marks, he probably doesn't have the time to think about how weird Donghae is. And anyway, Donghae really likes Kibum, likes Kibum like this, and the fact Kibum listens, and now Kibum moves his head but misses the pillow by an inch or two.
“Why..” Kibum begins, sounding exhausted, “do you think the pygmis never grow old?”
“Dancing,” Donghae answers, matter-of-factly.
“I think fairy genes.” Kibum closes his eyes. “I think I may have my share.”
Donghae laughs.
“I'm actually 88 years old,” Kibum says.
“Ew,” Donghae replies, lying down next to him. “I can't believe I slept with a pygmi.”
Kibum sighs and runs his hand down Donghae's side. “Hyung..” he mumbles, and then says nothing, falling asleep.
Donghae stares at Kibum for what may be hours, and thinks about planets with no exhaust pipes, and how much he loves Kibum.
---
AN: I'll be the first one to admit some of these are rushed and crappy but I just sdkfgskdfg love this ficlet. I always struggle to bring KiHae awesome out of Prison!AU but in here I feel it genuinely works somehow. And it's not even really all that ooc, I hope.
me vs the truth
eunhyuk/everybody, pg-13.
Eunhyuk has never imagined two or more Wonder Girls members in bed together, and Eunhyuk has never masturbated in the KBS studio bathrooms right before Kiss the Radio, and Eunhyuk has never heard Eeteuk doing the same thing.
Eunhyuk has never admired the curve of Sungmin's lower back, and Eunhyuk has never wanted to be treated as well as Shindong treats his girlfriends. Eunhyuk has never lied about dating when Kangin asked, just because of the way Kangin was staring at him, and Eunhyuk has never been uncomfortable with Heechul, for whatever reason.
Eunhyuk has never kissed Donghae for a bet or seen Yesung naked. Eunhyuk has never secretly wished he was in Big Bang and Eunhyuk has never called Tablo's home phone at 3 AM to listen to his answering machine message.
Eunhyuk has never wanted to be hugged by Siwon more, and Eunhyuk has never told Junsu he loves him earnestly, teary-eyed, clinging-holding-touching as if dying.
That is, should anybody ask. And if they ever do, Eunhyuk knows the smile he would smile, his hands waving dismissively. Aniyo.
He's a very boring person, really.
--
AN: Aniyo = no in Korean, in case you didn't know. This ficlet BECAUSE I LOVE HYUK SO MUCH OMG. And I believe he loves the world, too.
find a way
siwon/hankyung, pg.
Siwon is unnecessarily coy about his looks, and his Chinese. Both are good, even great at times, to be envied if Han Geng was the type to envy anything or anybody.
Siwon is pure, and honest, and so breath-taking Han Geng isn't sure how he ever manages. Most of the time, he probably doesn't, smiling with intention, touching with more intention and if Siwon knows, he's not letting it show.
Heechul knows, because Heechul always knows even with no language to tell him anything like way back then, and Geng thinks it's quite annoying that Heechul always knows.
He draws away intentionally and Siwon does notice, and paws him more than ever, hands and limbs and soft laughter against Geng's shoulder as they hug.
Siwon just doesn't want to lose anybody. As if he ever could, Geng thinks sadly, and stops his hands from extending any touch for too long, catching Heechul staring at them from the corner of his eye.
“Love you,” Siwon mumbles and probably doesn't hear his sigh.
“Thank you,” he replies in Mandarin, smiling and there's no hunger eating him inside, really, really.
--
AN: Ohhh why did ShiHan not make out in this. :( IDEK. Siwon stop being a fucking virgin. Gah.
give me fire
kangin/eeteuk, r.
You're supposed to buy her presents, call her thrice a day, leave messages, text her every chance you get, schmoopy things, stupid things. Love love love devotion love until all the words repeat themselves, until they don't mean shit, until there is a vague commitment, a love for love, no desire to see anybody for what they really are.
So if you refuse to buy into it, for fuck's sake, and dump her, just for that, and suddenly she pleads, “Oppa, let's work it out.”
Oppa. All the expectations she bleeds into that one fucking word. You just don't want it any more.
There is always somebody, though, somebody to think about when rubbing your cock and somebody to rub your cock for you, you just didn't think they were right there all along, his fantastic smile against your navel as his teeth bite and nibble and it was never this with anybody, it was never this awkward and perfect and your fingers tangled in his hair until the stupid little ponytail comes untied.
He doesn't require flowers or chocolates, so you do just that, you call and message, and he laughs, and you love that, you love that and feed on that, which is stupid. It's just great sex. Your libido should not rule you like this.
Eeteuk is yours, and you didn't even have to try, and maybe you're just really lazy, or maybe that's exactly why it's so perfect.
--
downsides of dormitories
ot13, r.
Years and years and years later, there is no Super Junior and they don't really know what the words mean any more, but they're still there. Separate and together, scattered and still in touch, and if there's anything they have in common, it's that none of them talk about That Night.
None of them are sure how That Night began. There was booze, and there was ..well, it was mostly just booze. Everybody was especially happy for whatever reason. Some a little too happy, and then there was the Game, which was a very crappy drinking game for it involved more kissing than drinking.
Some of them only remember the evening as far as kissing went. Kyuhyun blanked out after Sungmin introduced the idea of licking whatever alcohol anybody spilled on themselves, down their chins, into their shirts. Kangin remembers what happened beyond that but wishes he didn't. Eunhyuk insists all he did with Eeteuk was dance. Shindong is sure he was in bed by then (Heechul knows for a fact he wasn't). Donghae has memories of having lint in his mouth and a vague sensation of somebody's hand against him, Yesung remembers knees digging into the carpet, Ryeowook thanks Lord he has blocked out the details, Siwon just hates the fact his first time wasn't with the girl he'd eventually marry (if he would, That Night almost made me think). Hankyung was in China, but sadly for him, there are phones, and there are even camera phones and there is something he is sure he will never ever ever do again.
But That Night happened, and is in the past and they never discuss it, just like they never discuss That Other Night or That Time the Bathroom Lock Was Broken or That Time Yesung Got a Camcorder.
All things considered, it really is best this way.
---
AN: IDEK IDEK IDEK IDEK OMFG I DID NOT JUST WRITE THAT.
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What is done is done. Ahem, excuse me while I go feel dirty.