Mar 04, 2008 21:34
i remember the first time i inhaled it all the way.
i gave into the cigarette. litte puffs like my little steps.
i let the smoke swell in my lungs
and close around my airwaves.
i don't know what is so glamorous about smoking.
i don't know if it the promise of its appetite supresent.
like if u smoke this your legs will match
and be paper thin sticks.
maybe its because so many people
that i idolize
let that elusive smoke waft from their mouths.
like edie sedgwyck and trendy kids outside of shows.
i spend my days, shaking
i dont feel the nicotine seep into my blood,
i dont feel anything at all.
i find no relief in the smoke.
i find no skinny legs.
so why do i continue these baby steps towards addiction
and puff puff puff?