to new beginnings...
some may ask why i created a new lj and deleted my old. it's simple. i fucked up big time in my relationship with caitlin. the past 11 months, i have fucked up numerous times and this time it was big. i basically lost all of her trust and almost lost her. i might as well have cheated on her but i didn't. i didn't go that far but close enough and for that i am truly sorry. words can't describe how bad i feel but i have talked to her about this already.
this post is simple. it is to explain that we all get a second chance. i am thankful that caitlin has given me more than one second chance and this is my and our last one. things will be different now or we will be no more. that scares me considering i want to spend the rest of my life with her. she is my soulmate, i feel, and that is why we are still together to this day. something has kept us together. personally i, along with most others, think that she should have dumped me but i am so happy that she didn't. she is amazing.
and this entry is to new beginnings. we are starting over. things are different now. i know they are. i love you caitlin rose mcgowan. thank you for "second chances". thank you.
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this post is simple. it is to explain that we all get a second chance. i am thankful that caitlin has given me more than one second chance and this is my and our last one. things will be different now or we will be no more. that scares me considering i want to spend the rest of my life with her. she is my soulmate, i feel, and that is why we are still together to this day. something has kept us together. personally i, along with most others, think that she should have dumped me but i am so happy that she didn't. she is amazing.
and this entry is to new beginnings. we are starting over. things are different now. i know they are. i love you caitlin rose mcgowan. thank you for "second chances". thank you.
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