TOO BUSY
Rush rush rush, there is so much more to life than talking on the phone with your son who's having trouble accepting that you divorced his father and then LEFT EVERYONE.
Why would you even stop to consider that a TELEPHONE CONVERSATION might be a helpful way of easing the pain but NO. You're too fucking busy for that!
My brother is now afraid that I'm leaving him just like his mother.
Well guess what, I've already figured out that you cant just sever ties to your family by moving away, and that denying those ties just makes it that much more FUCKING PAINFUL.
There is no middle ground. I wish I could take my brother somewhere where there's no pain and no worries and he could live his life like a healthy, loved young child.
I will call him everyday, more than once a day.
I will visit him EVERY WEEKEND or at LEAST every other weekend.
I will say prayers with him EVERY NIGHT. Even if its over the phone.
I will continue to kiss him all over before I tuck him into bed, every night that I'm home.
I can move and still be positive and I can rest assured my brother will be fine. I am confident he will learn how to be a positive young man, even if he has to grow up too fast, just like his sisters did.
This world is so cruel.
Why would you even stop to consider that a TELEPHONE CONVERSATION might be a helpful way of easing the pain but NO. You're too fucking busy for that!
My brother is now afraid that I'm leaving him just like his mother.
Well guess what, I've already figured out that you cant just sever ties to your family by moving away, and that denying those ties just makes it that much more FUCKING PAINFUL.
There is no middle ground. I wish I could take my brother somewhere where there's no pain and no worries and he could live his life like a healthy, loved young child.
I will call him everyday, more than once a day.
I will visit him EVERY WEEKEND or at LEAST every other weekend.
I will say prayers with him EVERY NIGHT. Even if its over the phone.
I will continue to kiss him all over before I tuck him into bed, every night that I'm home.
I can move and still be positive and I can rest assured my brother will be fine. I am confident he will learn how to be a positive young man, even if he has to grow up too fast, just like his sisters did.
This world is so cruel.