Fuck it
Quick update, well it might not be. It just depends on how much my drunk ass feels like typing.
Noel and I broke up. Actually I broke up with Noel. I felt bad about it, but we're still on speaking terms, so I don't feel as bad. I just didn't feel anything anymore. And if you don't think that's a good enough reason, then fuck you. As of now, I'm listening to extremely loud music in my headphones. I'm in the floor lounge, and there is someone watching west wing. Someone is also studying.
I feel like since I was in a relationship for the last two years, I'm way too far behind where I want to be in terms of being able to get women. I feel like no matter how hard I try, I won't be able to. Maybe I'm just drunk.
There's this girl that lives on our floor that I'm attracted to. I wanted to try to hook up with her, and I figured I had the capacity to do so. My old roommate came over, and he convinced me (or I convinced myself) to get drunk. I didn't want to get totally wasted, but I ended up getting pretty drunk. Drunker than I wanted to. My roommate and my old roommate both seemed to think I'd get laid soon. And I believed them. I don't know if they were just trying to make me feel good or what.
This girl (Brooke) took us to Blockbuster, and we got some movies. We watched The Hills Have Eyes. I kinda got pretty close to Brooke during the movie, and I think it was all attributed to my drunkenness. Not taken seriously at all. And that's why I'm pissed. I feel stupid, and kinda worthless. Who knows, maybe it's just the alcohol. Maybe I had too high expectations. Who knows, and more importantly, who cares. My buddy Casey didn't seem to want to talk about it. Maybe that's also because I'm drunk. But if you'll notice, almost everything is typed correctly in this post, so I'M NOT THAT DRUNK. But you know, like the subject says, fuck it.
Plus when I spell checked it, there was only one word wrong. HA.
Noel and I broke up. Actually I broke up with Noel. I felt bad about it, but we're still on speaking terms, so I don't feel as bad. I just didn't feel anything anymore. And if you don't think that's a good enough reason, then fuck you. As of now, I'm listening to extremely loud music in my headphones. I'm in the floor lounge, and there is someone watching west wing. Someone is also studying.
I feel like since I was in a relationship for the last two years, I'm way too far behind where I want to be in terms of being able to get women. I feel like no matter how hard I try, I won't be able to. Maybe I'm just drunk.
There's this girl that lives on our floor that I'm attracted to. I wanted to try to hook up with her, and I figured I had the capacity to do so. My old roommate came over, and he convinced me (or I convinced myself) to get drunk. I didn't want to get totally wasted, but I ended up getting pretty drunk. Drunker than I wanted to. My roommate and my old roommate both seemed to think I'd get laid soon. And I believed them. I don't know if they were just trying to make me feel good or what.
This girl (Brooke) took us to Blockbuster, and we got some movies. We watched The Hills Have Eyes. I kinda got pretty close to Brooke during the movie, and I think it was all attributed to my drunkenness. Not taken seriously at all. And that's why I'm pissed. I feel stupid, and kinda worthless. Who knows, maybe it's just the alcohol. Maybe I had too high expectations. Who knows, and more importantly, who cares. My buddy Casey didn't seem to want to talk about it. Maybe that's also because I'm drunk. But if you'll notice, almost everything is typed correctly in this post, so I'M NOT THAT DRUNK. But you know, like the subject says, fuck it.
Plus when I spell checked it, there was only one word wrong. HA.