Myspace sucks.
La la. I'm bored. Like, really bored. I really wanna do something tonight. Something fun and drug free. Hmm...pop fireworks! Yes, that's the plan. Well, I'm dying my hair right now and I'm a mess. I have dark pink stains all over my neck and my hands...and my forehead. They look like hickeys. And I feel sick :( I always sleep with my fan on too high even though I hate it. Laziness. Well, I'm single and it feels wierd. Not that I haven't been single for a long time, because I somewhat have, but it just feels wierd to not have anybody. I like this guy...but I'm not too sure if he sees me as more than that. We talk every night on the phone from like, one in the morning til six or seven and he's just really cool. I guess I'm just scared that he's too cool for me. I always have that problem. Everytime I'm into a guy or talking to one, I'm just so scared that he'll reject me...even if it seems he's interested. I always feel lame around him and I don't know. When I get back up to San Antonio, he wants to hang out...we've never really done that before...so who knows? There's this other guy though. I don't expect a lot out of this one. We met on myspace, he's from Boston and he's visiting his parents who just moved to San Antonio. He really wants me to go back up early and visit him before he leaves, but I can't. Or not that I can't, but I don't really know if I want to. I'm scared that he wouldn't like me if he met me. He's offering to drive down here...a four hour drive, just to hang out for a couple of days. I'm just really scared of being rejected. I really do want to meet this guy though. He seems like a really cool guy. Man, I wanna get wasted. Just so I can fall asleep peacefully without thinking about everything so much. No worries. That'd be nice. But for now, I'll keep watching Friends.