Lucky Girl
Lucky girl indeed, I live in a shack.... it's a duplex but no better than a cardboard box.
Don't worry folks this isn't a woe as me story, contrary to how it reads.......
I haven't had hot water since September (it takes approximatly 1.5 hrs to boil water for a bath... just in case you've wondered), air conditioner broke in August, there's a nice chunck of plaster missing from one of my living room walls, courtesy of the leak in the roof that was patched with a big piece of water stained plywood several years ago. This was aptly nailed to my ceiling by a couple of rip off contractors that my grandmother paid up front.
Keeeeeep reading.....
My kitchen floor is another plywood playground... unfinished and nailed to the tile... again, a contractor that wanted his money before he finished the job.... hence the missing pieces of my plywood mosaic. I run an extension cord to wash my clothes because the outlet on my back porch went out in the spring of last year and my dryer stopped working yesterday.
Oh yeah, and the room that houses the hot water heater virtually has no floor due to the leak that the piece of shit had for years before it finally decided to bust.
Not to mention my bad housekeeping skills.....
Keeeeeeeeppppp reading.....
Needless to say I do not let people into my house. I'am ashamed of it. I entertain everyone that happens by, no matter the weather, on the front porch.... I actually dated a guy for almost a year and he only gained entry once in a ten month span. In case you haven't figured this out yet I don't have the money to fix any of this crap.... but I make due.
Lucky me you say?.... Yes !!!!! Lucky and loved !!!!
Taaa Daaaaa..... Keep reading.....
Last night my best friend from Savannah calls me and starts quizzing me about the state of my quarters. At 1st I thought she was about to nominate me for Extreme Home Makeover or something. Then she announces that she and her brother and father have teamed up to fix my house.
At no cost to me.... you're asking yourself WTF??
Don't worry I asked myself and her the same thing.
You see, my friend is the same one from my 11-28-04 post and I can only assume..... I did not ask mind you.... that she's using her inheritance to help me. She knows my history with my Grandmother and she knows my current situation. She's always stated that if she had the money she would fix my house.... but when someone says that you think sure.... right!!!
That's usually a throw away phrase that people use to create a false sense of relief. Not in this case.....
I of course objected but there's no objection where Buffy is concerned.... she's already got the wheels moving and I'm expecting my 1st vist from her dad and brother tomorrow morning. They'll not be able to fix everything that's wrong with my little lean-to but the fact that she, and her family are even considering my well-being is just overwhelming. I don't know what to say..... I don't know how to thank them. I don't know how to stop them which is what I'd really like to do. I don't like to indebt myself to people.
I don't like it but I'm elated..... I cried all night and this morning. I've already said that I'm overwhelmed and that's the only word that I can think of that even comes close to what I'm feeling.
Bottom line is that I'm feeling terribly guilty..... I'm not worthy of this. I can't repay them.... I can't love them or thank them enough. Atleast I have a roof over my head... a leaky, weak ass roof but a roof none the less...they could be helping someone else but they chose me. I don't deserve it people. I'm a lazy ass loaf that could have made better choices in her life. Anyway Buffy says she wants me to know that I'm loved and that I matter.
I realize that... I don't understand it but I know that I'am blessed. God has answered my prayers and Buffy, Joey and Papa Cantrell are my angels....
I just have to convice myself that I'm worthy of it.
God Bless my friends!!!!
Bren
Don't worry folks this isn't a woe as me story, contrary to how it reads.......
I haven't had hot water since September (it takes approximatly 1.5 hrs to boil water for a bath... just in case you've wondered), air conditioner broke in August, there's a nice chunck of plaster missing from one of my living room walls, courtesy of the leak in the roof that was patched with a big piece of water stained plywood several years ago. This was aptly nailed to my ceiling by a couple of rip off contractors that my grandmother paid up front.
Keeeeeep reading.....
My kitchen floor is another plywood playground... unfinished and nailed to the tile... again, a contractor that wanted his money before he finished the job.... hence the missing pieces of my plywood mosaic. I run an extension cord to wash my clothes because the outlet on my back porch went out in the spring of last year and my dryer stopped working yesterday.
Oh yeah, and the room that houses the hot water heater virtually has no floor due to the leak that the piece of shit had for years before it finally decided to bust.
Not to mention my bad housekeeping skills.....
Keeeeeeeeppppp reading.....
Needless to say I do not let people into my house. I'am ashamed of it. I entertain everyone that happens by, no matter the weather, on the front porch.... I actually dated a guy for almost a year and he only gained entry once in a ten month span. In case you haven't figured this out yet I don't have the money to fix any of this crap.... but I make due.
Lucky me you say?.... Yes !!!!! Lucky and loved !!!!
Taaa Daaaaa..... Keep reading.....
Last night my best friend from Savannah calls me and starts quizzing me about the state of my quarters. At 1st I thought she was about to nominate me for Extreme Home Makeover or something. Then she announces that she and her brother and father have teamed up to fix my house.
At no cost to me.... you're asking yourself WTF??
Don't worry I asked myself and her the same thing.
You see, my friend is the same one from my 11-28-04 post and I can only assume..... I did not ask mind you.... that she's using her inheritance to help me. She knows my history with my Grandmother and she knows my current situation. She's always stated that if she had the money she would fix my house.... but when someone says that you think sure.... right!!!
That's usually a throw away phrase that people use to create a false sense of relief. Not in this case.....
I of course objected but there's no objection where Buffy is concerned.... she's already got the wheels moving and I'm expecting my 1st vist from her dad and brother tomorrow morning. They'll not be able to fix everything that's wrong with my little lean-to but the fact that she, and her family are even considering my well-being is just overwhelming. I don't know what to say..... I don't know how to thank them. I don't know how to stop them which is what I'd really like to do. I don't like to indebt myself to people.
I don't like it but I'm elated..... I cried all night and this morning. I've already said that I'm overwhelmed and that's the only word that I can think of that even comes close to what I'm feeling.
Bottom line is that I'm feeling terribly guilty..... I'm not worthy of this. I can't repay them.... I can't love them or thank them enough. Atleast I have a roof over my head... a leaky, weak ass roof but a roof none the less...they could be helping someone else but they chose me. I don't deserve it people. I'm a lazy ass loaf that could have made better choices in her life. Anyway Buffy says she wants me to know that I'm loved and that I matter.
I realize that... I don't understand it but I know that I'am blessed. God has answered my prayers and Buffy, Joey and Papa Cantrell are my angels....
I just have to convice myself that I'm worthy of it.
God Bless my friends!!!!
Bren