life is amazing
wow..things may be horrible..but theres always good in a bad situation...it may be hard to find it but it's there...for me this was discovered with matt mesa and his death. the night of his death i had been out with my b/f and was having the best time of my life he always put a smile on my face he was amazing! i loved him so much! but after matt died he couldnt put a smile on my face anymore and i was drained and began to drain him and take away his smle and i knew that it couldnt go on bewteen us anymore and no matter how much i loved him i knew i couldnt put him through what i was going through. it had to end no matter how much i cared and loved him...so i did a week after matt died i threw away everything with him...and i wondered if things culd get worse and life suked ass for like 4 monts amd i had no idea what to do..every time i saw him i got a jumbly inside and i wasnt hungry i still loved him n he was the onli one who culd make me happi..as soon as i realized that things slowly got better and better each day seemed to be worth living again and i thought about seeing him constantly all the time...no today i still love him and i decided to tell him how i feel and hopefully things will be amazing again...wish me luck