"Your a bunch of yo-yo's, shut up you yo-yo's"
you always in my heart and thats a beautiful thing
like warm air flowing from a beautiful spring
for now Ima think about you every day
and how we used to dumb out in every way
brought a smile to my face on the hardest of days....
Sorry for the lack of updates, but there hasnt been alotta happy joy joy moments lately. Ive been super depressed for the past few days and basically just been sleepin, watchin cartoons, and talkin to my girl.
And on top of all that, I damn near chrushed my hand this mornin while workin out.... shit sucks like... ALOT. I added an additional 10 pounds to my bench press, and as I lay there, pushin with all my might to get that last rep back up the bar, the thought of just letting it fall and crush my throat crossed my mind.
would you cry for my death? would you attend my funeral? Ive been havin really morbid thoughts lately, and its worrying me. Been questioning my own self worth, and my place in this world.
Its better to have loved and lost then never loved before? I dont believe that. Being in love is possibly the greatest experience one can have in their life, and losing that is like being ripped from heaven against your will.
I always like to plan for the future, I live more far more for the future than for the present, which might be one of my downfalls in this world. I like to plan things out, and when things dont go as planned, it rips my heart apart.
I plan on moving my girlfriend down here at the end of this year if her parents will allow it, I hope to god she can wait that long for me. I really have never felt a love like the love I have for her.
so heather, if and when you read this, just know that i love you, more than anything, and I always will, no matter what the outcome of our lives.
Well, if that didnt make everyone wanna slit there wrists I dont know what will, haha. Later ya prick bastids, and I know I always say I'll updated more often, but this time I mean it.... or do I? =) stay tuned ya frigs!
"but if its true, could I have been so easily forgotten"
like warm air flowing from a beautiful spring
for now Ima think about you every day
and how we used to dumb out in every way
brought a smile to my face on the hardest of days....
Sorry for the lack of updates, but there hasnt been alotta happy joy joy moments lately. Ive been super depressed for the past few days and basically just been sleepin, watchin cartoons, and talkin to my girl.
And on top of all that, I damn near chrushed my hand this mornin while workin out.... shit sucks like... ALOT. I added an additional 10 pounds to my bench press, and as I lay there, pushin with all my might to get that last rep back up the bar, the thought of just letting it fall and crush my throat crossed my mind.
would you cry for my death? would you attend my funeral? Ive been havin really morbid thoughts lately, and its worrying me. Been questioning my own self worth, and my place in this world.
Its better to have loved and lost then never loved before? I dont believe that. Being in love is possibly the greatest experience one can have in their life, and losing that is like being ripped from heaven against your will.
I always like to plan for the future, I live more far more for the future than for the present, which might be one of my downfalls in this world. I like to plan things out, and when things dont go as planned, it rips my heart apart.
I plan on moving my girlfriend down here at the end of this year if her parents will allow it, I hope to god she can wait that long for me. I really have never felt a love like the love I have for her.
so heather, if and when you read this, just know that i love you, more than anything, and I always will, no matter what the outcome of our lives.
Well, if that didnt make everyone wanna slit there wrists I dont know what will, haha. Later ya prick bastids, and I know I always say I'll updated more often, but this time I mean it.... or do I? =) stay tuned ya frigs!
"but if its true, could I have been so easily forgotten"