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I don't write things out enough. Maybe I'll do that more...and this is as good a medium for that as any.
Watched my grandpa get married yesterday...he was married to my grandma for 49 and a half years...she died so close to that monumental 50-yr mark...and not only did she die so suddenly and unexpectedly, but he had to spend that anniversary day alone...I cannot imagine..Well, 3 years later, I had to watch him remarry. This is where the child in me comes out...I dont ever really express how i REALLY feel..bc I try too hard to be mature...
I don't understand Loving someone for 50 years, exchanging vows of committment, and remarrying 3 years after her death for the sole purpose of extinguishing loneliness...in my somewhat limited and young perspective, he owes her his committment even in death for the 50 years she gave him...she was the glue that held our family together... Watching my aunt and father cry at the wedding hurt...those were tears for my grandmother.
That said, I support my grandfather without second thought, and we'll love his new wife for who she is and her role within the family. It's a different way to Love, but I'm not sure there's only one way to Love.
I think of how people Love, and I think of the tortoise and the hare. I can't put it into word that express exactly how I view it, but I have a tendency to love like the hare...but the greatest thing I'm learning/learned recently is the process...it's easy to Love in bursts...but there are instances when it's difficult as hell to sustain it.
Anyway. I wish I'd expressed to my grandmother how much she meant to me, and I hope she's looking down from heaven, happy for my grandmother and content with the fact that she could never be replaced.
Watched my grandpa get married yesterday...he was married to my grandma for 49 and a half years...she died so close to that monumental 50-yr mark...and not only did she die so suddenly and unexpectedly, but he had to spend that anniversary day alone...I cannot imagine..Well, 3 years later, I had to watch him remarry. This is where the child in me comes out...I dont ever really express how i REALLY feel..bc I try too hard to be mature...
I don't understand Loving someone for 50 years, exchanging vows of committment, and remarrying 3 years after her death for the sole purpose of extinguishing loneliness...in my somewhat limited and young perspective, he owes her his committment even in death for the 50 years she gave him...she was the glue that held our family together... Watching my aunt and father cry at the wedding hurt...those were tears for my grandmother.
That said, I support my grandfather without second thought, and we'll love his new wife for who she is and her role within the family. It's a different way to Love, but I'm not sure there's only one way to Love.
I think of how people Love, and I think of the tortoise and the hare. I can't put it into word that express exactly how I view it, but I have a tendency to love like the hare...but the greatest thing I'm learning/learned recently is the process...it's easy to Love in bursts...but there are instances when it's difficult as hell to sustain it.
Anyway. I wish I'd expressed to my grandmother how much she meant to me, and I hope she's looking down from heaven, happy for my grandmother and content with the fact that she could never be replaced.