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im off track and not whole... I used to have spark, spunk, and emotion. Then I fell, and something inside me died and went to hell. It disappeared shortly after Sarah left...and it ends up being exposed even further by attending this school and the people here. Every one of these fucking kids claims theyre here for some noble reason....duty and whatnot. Bullshit. Everyone looks out for number 1. I just want that emotion back...maybe that innocence and hope too. Ever the optimist, but only as a survival tool.