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So there's this girl I used to be friends with, she's younger then me by almost 4 years. But for some reason we just clicked and I liked it like that. She became the little sister I never had, literally. We called one another sister. Her on/off (more off then on) bf since last Jan., cheated on her in a 3some around July with his roomate and a mutual friend of my sister's and his (this friend was like my sister's big bro.....so you can imagine the hurt). They get back together not even 3 weeks later. Anyway, we had a falling out in September and I kinda fucked up royally (which I'd rather not get into) and we stopped hanging out all together. For the past month I've been apologizing and all that shit and she forgives me but we're still not hanging? I thought that the bond was much stronger then any little fight could get in the middle of. I compare the situations of her bf cheating and mine, cuz we both fucked up pretty big in her life and we were the 2 closest people to her, aside from blood relatives obviously......yet she took him back and not me. It just really bugs me. And when I really stop and fucking think about it....she walked all over me then, whose to say she's not just gonna do it again? Why am I even bothering, she's frikin 15 yrs old! Maybe I just saw a glimmer of hope in her that I could relive that age...and maybe guide her to not make the same mistakes I did, seeing as she's pretty much a littler version of me. But when all is said and done at the end of the day, I've got more then a handful of good friends.....who I've never had ridiculous fights with.....so I guess I'm over it.
Oh and my iPod got stolen from my family xmas party at my house on Dec 29th. I dunno if I mentioned it before, but I'm still really mad reguardless. Ugh.
My application to NVCC is late right now and I haven't even gotten past writing my name. I started my new job at a convenient store in Wolcott last saturday, got paid for it, and the next time I work is tomorrow. Fortunately, I babysit my neighbor at least once or twice every 2 weeks (good GOOD pay) and I work for my dad 3x a week. Justin and Me go to my friend Dave's (known him since about Sept) like 3x a week pretty much for the past month (if not more)...and now they're like really good friends and go snowboarding together and it's a little weird cuz I kinda REALLY like Dave. I dunno I love that they get along and thank god Justin has a guy friend around here now lol, but seriously....I don't want any embarassing stories to leak. I guess I kinda wish they'd become friends AFTER we started to date (me being optimistic right there)...but I don't even know what's going on with that, or if it's even in the works. Though he did take me out on a date for my birthday (our first date ever) and went to a real like tip-top restaurant and got all dressed up and stuff....and like we snuggle on the couch and watch a movie but that's about it lol...
I think I'm ok with where I'm at right now. I have amazing friends, I'm crushin, have a few odd jobs and I'm going back to school. I think I'm finally gonna be alright.
Oh and my iPod got stolen from my family xmas party at my house on Dec 29th. I dunno if I mentioned it before, but I'm still really mad reguardless. Ugh.
My application to NVCC is late right now and I haven't even gotten past writing my name. I started my new job at a convenient store in Wolcott last saturday, got paid for it, and the next time I work is tomorrow. Fortunately, I babysit my neighbor at least once or twice every 2 weeks (good GOOD pay) and I work for my dad 3x a week. Justin and Me go to my friend Dave's (known him since about Sept) like 3x a week pretty much for the past month (if not more)...and now they're like really good friends and go snowboarding together and it's a little weird cuz I kinda REALLY like Dave. I dunno I love that they get along and thank god Justin has a guy friend around here now lol, but seriously....I don't want any embarassing stories to leak. I guess I kinda wish they'd become friends AFTER we started to date (me being optimistic right there)...but I don't even know what's going on with that, or if it's even in the works. Though he did take me out on a date for my birthday (our first date ever) and went to a real like tip-top restaurant and got all dressed up and stuff....and like we snuggle on the couch and watch a movie but that's about it lol...
I think I'm ok with where I'm at right now. I have amazing friends, I'm crushin, have a few odd jobs and I'm going back to school. I think I'm finally gonna be alright.