october three
i'm home now. the last few shows were really good. we needed that.
coming home is always a little awkward. each time, trying to reconnect w/ people. the closer you are to someone, the harder it can be to reconnect when you come back. even if it's only been a couple of weeks. there's the tension like opposing magnetic forces. they're afraid to reconnect again because they know you'll just be leaving again in a matter of time. and each time you leave, it hurts them. hurts me, too. some people would rather keep you at a distance than keep going through that. i can't necessarily blame them. it's just, the people who are close in your life begin to fade in numbers. now i know what joshua meant when he said this was the loneliest job in the world.
you run out of friends. but you have a million acquaintances.
i dont know whether i want to go see mates of state or the esoteric tonight. i'd really like to hang out w/ e-dogg, though. haven't seen him since our stint recording in lawrence, ks last winter.
i dont have a nickel to my name. that's never an issue for concerts, but i kind of want to see a movie.
i just dont want to sit at home all night by myself.
coming home is always a little awkward. each time, trying to reconnect w/ people. the closer you are to someone, the harder it can be to reconnect when you come back. even if it's only been a couple of weeks. there's the tension like opposing magnetic forces. they're afraid to reconnect again because they know you'll just be leaving again in a matter of time. and each time you leave, it hurts them. hurts me, too. some people would rather keep you at a distance than keep going through that. i can't necessarily blame them. it's just, the people who are close in your life begin to fade in numbers. now i know what joshua meant when he said this was the loneliest job in the world.
you run out of friends. but you have a million acquaintances.
i dont know whether i want to go see mates of state or the esoteric tonight. i'd really like to hang out w/ e-dogg, though. haven't seen him since our stint recording in lawrence, ks last winter.
i dont have a nickel to my name. that's never an issue for concerts, but i kind of want to see a movie.
i just dont want to sit at home all night by myself.