Out of my mind on Easter
Well I was just lookin thru my livejournal....and i just wanted to say that things are surprizingly good...even though my emotional state goes up and down because of my emotional attactment to people and my unreadyness to actually be ME! but slowly I'm realizinf im on a path i needed to be on....that path i thought i lost was actually underneath me! I'm on my way still and actually making some progress in the right direction...its just little obsticles I'm facing. With me being unable to even trust myself, it make it hard to know if the option chosen is the right one! But reguardless of any of that I made a promise to myself that every wrong turn or dead end i run into will be my fault and no long will i b a passenger in anyone elses "car"...and I am actually sticking to it even though it hurts to be doing your own thing and people are not really understanding or suporting ya!
anywho I had two performances this weekend and they went well....alot of drama was behind the scenes but it wasnt anything huge....but certin chapters are closing...we sold out friday show and basically sold out fridays....This was wanna of those shows i felt we all did a good job....I can say on a few shows we've had I shined and this last show, all of us from the original cast shined....it made me feel really good! Damien from the show is leaving us to join this theatre group in the boondocks in onwhere MN....so its already like we arent complete...he was a kool ass dude and he acually told me some thing pretty cool...he wanted me to audition for the travelling theatre group cause he thought out of all the guys in the show...he saw me doing it! I really want to but im spose to b moving to cali! another thing I was told from the show from my buddy kevin is, when he first saw me on stage before he join the cast that I had something a presence that he felt/saw and he hopes i dont stop doing what im doing and take it all the way to the top...and honestly that was possibly the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me cause he said it at rehursals infront of everyone...so it wasnt like one of those things people say to make u feel good!
oh yea im frickin moving AGAIN! only 5 blocks away from where i live...its retarded but oh well i can care less....I talked to mia again afew times she'll be back in MN soon itll be interesting if we hang out
I found a good ol friend Steve on myspace and we actually are talkin and stuff its really cool because we were pretty close when i was in 8th and 9th grade....it was funny cause we told eact[hother back then if we lose contact we'd go on a talk show like mmontel and find the other...but we alway ran into eachother every couple of years and loose contact again....we both move alot!
I went to Seans house to drop off a flyer for my show but only his little bor Billy was there....so i just gave it to him! that was nerve wrecking i muct say!
I cut off all my hair but alot of people thought it brought a certin "edge" to my look and i should have kept the twist or afro but it was tooooo much work and not a good summer look...next fall if im not balding i will give it another shot!
I realized that the only reason me and eric have be havbing issues is because im growing up and the newer me dont mix well with some of his ways and his friends! Its weird but ima fight to keep us friends cause it just feels like i should reguardless what he does......
Saturday was my semi day of rest cause friday was HECTIC i couldnt even think str8...i had an audition/meeting wit this producer, had to get my hair cut, had a meeting with this photographer, go to a couple random places to promote the T-Spot and gather all the props for the show and then figure out how to get into a club wit a fake ID cause i left mine at erics.....its all worked out, was VIP at Myth and KICKED it witht the t-spot players...we kept gettin shout outs......it was awesome...i felt on top of the world dancing in a circle of people that understand you and are fighting for the same thing u are!
I had a photoshoot and the damn photographer basically dont want his pix used for ANYTHING! i wish he would have told me that b4 i had it wit him cause i dont want pix i take to be unseen...but oh well i live and learn!
I havnt seen kortoes baby since she's takin him home but ive been so busy with err thang....since certin things are ending i should have alot more time on my hands.....cause i want to b a known face in that boys life....i like when kids like me....like nates daughter...when im not around she'll be sayin my name and repeats everything i say...she's 2 and CUUUUTE! I call he boom boom and she says it all the time....nae even calls her that! haha
as of right now im at eric house full as hell waiting for a bile movment...HAHAHAHAH....had church at 7am and one got 2 hrs of sleep cause my allergies are starting to act CRAZY!
WORK IS STILL CRAPPY AND REALLY NEED TO GET ANOTHER ONE...but i may work with eric just because he has a good sumer job and it makes good money....
happy eater ya'll
thought id give ya a good update even though not many people read my journal...ohhh well i will to recap my life haha
anywho I had two performances this weekend and they went well....alot of drama was behind the scenes but it wasnt anything huge....but certin chapters are closing...we sold out friday show and basically sold out fridays....This was wanna of those shows i felt we all did a good job....I can say on a few shows we've had I shined and this last show, all of us from the original cast shined....it made me feel really good! Damien from the show is leaving us to join this theatre group in the boondocks in onwhere MN....so its already like we arent complete...he was a kool ass dude and he acually told me some thing pretty cool...he wanted me to audition for the travelling theatre group cause he thought out of all the guys in the show...he saw me doing it! I really want to but im spose to b moving to cali! another thing I was told from the show from my buddy kevin is, when he first saw me on stage before he join the cast that I had something a presence that he felt/saw and he hopes i dont stop doing what im doing and take it all the way to the top...and honestly that was possibly the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me cause he said it at rehursals infront of everyone...so it wasnt like one of those things people say to make u feel good!
oh yea im frickin moving AGAIN! only 5 blocks away from where i live...its retarded but oh well i can care less....I talked to mia again afew times she'll be back in MN soon itll be interesting if we hang out
I found a good ol friend Steve on myspace and we actually are talkin and stuff its really cool because we were pretty close when i was in 8th and 9th grade....it was funny cause we told eact[hother back then if we lose contact we'd go on a talk show like mmontel and find the other...but we alway ran into eachother every couple of years and loose contact again....we both move alot!
I went to Seans house to drop off a flyer for my show but only his little bor Billy was there....so i just gave it to him! that was nerve wrecking i muct say!
I cut off all my hair but alot of people thought it brought a certin "edge" to my look and i should have kept the twist or afro but it was tooooo much work and not a good summer look...next fall if im not balding i will give it another shot!
I realized that the only reason me and eric have be havbing issues is because im growing up and the newer me dont mix well with some of his ways and his friends! Its weird but ima fight to keep us friends cause it just feels like i should reguardless what he does......
Saturday was my semi day of rest cause friday was HECTIC i couldnt even think str8...i had an audition/meeting wit this producer, had to get my hair cut, had a meeting with this photographer, go to a couple random places to promote the T-Spot and gather all the props for the show and then figure out how to get into a club wit a fake ID cause i left mine at erics.....its all worked out, was VIP at Myth and KICKED it witht the t-spot players...we kept gettin shout outs......it was awesome...i felt on top of the world dancing in a circle of people that understand you and are fighting for the same thing u are!
I had a photoshoot and the damn photographer basically dont want his pix used for ANYTHING! i wish he would have told me that b4 i had it wit him cause i dont want pix i take to be unseen...but oh well i live and learn!
I havnt seen kortoes baby since she's takin him home but ive been so busy with err thang....since certin things are ending i should have alot more time on my hands.....cause i want to b a known face in that boys life....i like when kids like me....like nates daughter...when im not around she'll be sayin my name and repeats everything i say...she's 2 and CUUUUTE! I call he boom boom and she says it all the time....nae even calls her that! haha
as of right now im at eric house full as hell waiting for a bile movment...HAHAHAHAH....had church at 7am and one got 2 hrs of sleep cause my allergies are starting to act CRAZY!
WORK IS STILL CRAPPY AND REALLY NEED TO GET ANOTHER ONE...but i may work with eric just because he has a good sumer job and it makes good money....
happy eater ya'll
thought id give ya a good update even though not many people read my journal...ohhh well i will to recap my life haha