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When someone dies, near to you or not, you feel it. Makes you think, makes you question. Heaven, hell, soul, worth ??? Questions arise, so do some answers. These questions and answers, whether wanted to be or not, are sufficiently indented into our minds for a long time, maybe forever. The answers that we find change our point of view towards our self, others, and the world, they shape us. I remember after my grandfather's funeral service, being in my uncle's van with my cousins and my brother and sister driving to the cemetary for his burial, i remember my uncle saying: "i dont get how people are able to say, we should celebrate their life, not mourn their death. It makes no sense to me". That memory is one of those that is so vivid, like your able to remember who was beside you, the feel of what you were sitting on, everything. It was the first time I was confronted with the idea of death, and what different peoples views on it were and how different people dealt with it. It definatly shocked me.
I was talking to a friend of mine, Eric, and i realized something. People say there are two things unexplainable: love and death. I disagree. Love i can explain, i believe we can all explain it cause, well, at some point or another we experience being in it and then what happanes afterwards. Death though, no one can explain that. What happens afterwards, what happens during, no one can explain. People that say they have near death experiences are just experiencing a loss of oxygen to the brain, like a drug does, but they refuse to think of it as like a drug experience because they excpet it to be much greater and different. Their excpetancy of it being a near death experience distorts what it actually was, just loss of oxygen, and makes them feel like they were going to heaven (or hell). So really, there is no one that can explain death. It is the one thing that baffles humanity and defeats it, as cheesy as that sounds. And yes, i know it sounds cheesy
This also made me think of something else, if someone thinks that there is heaven after death then it is easier for them to accept someone dieing, for they believe they are not totally gone and they will meet them again. While if someone believes there is nothing after death, accepting someone is totally gone is maybe not harder, but incredibly different and difficult, or actually maybe is harder. I dont know. I'm the latter. I dont believe in heaven or hell.
When someone dies, so many questions pop into your head. A big one... why them? One that baffles even more and actually hurts... why at such a young age? But then again, does age have something to do with it though??? I won't get into that...
This has been me ranting about a few of my thoughts on this subject. I'm sorry if this has offended or seemed morbid, please excuse me. Recently, a huge variety of people experienced the death of a friend, and an amazing person. People literally all across Canada, even the world ( for example India and New Zealand) felt at around the same time that shock and pain you get when you hear of a death, and are (rightfully) still feeling that.
I don't really know how to end this. I just wanted to share a few of my views on this subject. If you have any views or disagreements from what i have said on this subject feel free to comment, but know this is just my opinion, not a lecture or anything like that. Again, i am sorry if this has offended I didnt mean it to.
I will leave it with this: as one of my friends said... "How could one little street take so many lives".
R.I.P ~ N.M
We will miss you