Maybe I'm not unpredictable...

[tomicidal]

Maybe she has a learning disability. Evidence of that would be when she recently said, and I quote "I don't even know you." Now I agree with that as I often got the feeling she doesn't know me. That's kind of weird to me though because I'm mostly an open book, AND am quite prone to rambling on about myself. Despite that though, after 5 years, she

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[tomicidal]

I think i'd agree with you if this was more public like facebook. On here though there's probably less than a handful of people that read my journal and NONE of them even know me or her personally. This is my journal that she didn't even know about until she saw that I forgot to sign out and then she invaded my privacy. She doesn't hesitate to let me know what she thinks and how she feels but damns me if I try to express myself to her. If writing about my issues with her in my personal journal can help her understand where I'm coming from then I'm going to do so. It's not like I'm making shit up and spreading lies about her. She needs to hear my perspective.

AND if writing publicly about her in my journal makes me a bad guy then she should actually appreciate that because it's making it easier for her to justify her decision in filing for a divorce. She keeps looking for shady questionable behavior from me so she can feel better about her choice to quit. Does she want to someday regret letting me go and giving up on our marriage? No. She wants to be and feel right about her choices. Again, she wants to justify all her actions and if I'm the bad guy then she can more easily do so.