I just wanna get it over with...
I don't even know why I'm updating this I just feel like I need to.
I'm sick of writing about this and I'm even more sick of thinking about it but I can't stop and it's killing me inside. I'm just so tired of everything right now and don't know what to do. No one is on to talk to, I can't sleep and all I can do is sit here and think and think and just get deeper in a hole.
I'm sick of making stupid choices, doing stupid things, and thinking about stupid shit like everything right now. I think most of this has to do with me even if I'm blaming other people I just feel so stupid about everything I'v done. Everytime I try to open up to someone it just ends up being the wrong person and I end up getting crushed and I can't even describe the feeling.
I don't know maybe I'm being dramatic I just had to write something and see if it would help but it really doesn't. I guess I just wish someone could say something and make everything better but that can't happen, I need to fix things myself but I have no clue what to do and don't have the strength in me to do it.
Sorry if that was random I just had to type something out and get it out of me.
Happy 4th.
I'm sick of writing about this and I'm even more sick of thinking about it but I can't stop and it's killing me inside. I'm just so tired of everything right now and don't know what to do. No one is on to talk to, I can't sleep and all I can do is sit here and think and think and just get deeper in a hole.
I'm sick of making stupid choices, doing stupid things, and thinking about stupid shit like everything right now. I think most of this has to do with me even if I'm blaming other people I just feel so stupid about everything I'v done. Everytime I try to open up to someone it just ends up being the wrong person and I end up getting crushed and I can't even describe the feeling.
I don't know maybe I'm being dramatic I just had to write something and see if it would help but it really doesn't. I guess I just wish someone could say something and make everything better but that can't happen, I need to fix things myself but I have no clue what to do and don't have the strength in me to do it.
Sorry if that was random I just had to type something out and get it out of me.
Happy 4th.