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[tomcat827]

the ups are matched by the downs
its been forever since we talked....
how have you been?

im scared for matt right now.
its been a rough weekend for him. and i just want him to be happy.
michelle has been breaking his heart.
i know he deserves better.
we all deserve better then what we have.

i feel like no matter what i do, somebody is going to be mad at me for something.
the three of us are falling apart...

whats it going to be like in a week.
in a month
in a year?

right now i want to hide under my blankets and not wake up for a lifetime
where is everyone in my life?
i miss my sister.

my mom got in a car accident on friday
it scared me.
she flipped her car twice and wrapped it around a tree.

their eyes are bloodshot from all the tears of this weekend.

i havnt found someone in months...
where does this leave me?
where does it leave us?

i feel my body draining.
i think i have become so overwhelmed with life that its affecting my health.
its been harder to breathe.
self inflicted destruction.

im not sure what else to say.
except....i want to be happy again.