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November 21, 1997
Hi Charlie!
How are you? I've written to discuss everything that's been going on, with my life, mainly the whole Nana situation and my feelings.
I'm confused and angry and sad. One second I want to hate her because she was my Nana, but the next minute I think how can I hate her when I'll never see her again?
She was supposed to kick their collective arses, not the other way around. She was supposed to see me graduate and get married and have kids. How could she let herself die? I don't understand the whole situation. I knew people died. Bloody hell, both my parents did. But I was so young, I don't remember them very much. Most of what I do remember is from the stories my grandmother would tell me. Like how we would go over your house for the holidays. When I pictured your house before seeing it, it was different. More girly. I think what memories I do have is made up.
Anyways, back to the situation at hand. I don't understand much, like how this happened to my family. She was standing up against Voldemort, but was the reason to kill her? She was a pureblood witch, raising the same. What could a little old lady have to do with the war? I don't understand how I even start to get through this. I never thought about before. Of course, I knew people died and their families got through this, and at times like this I could really use a smoke.
She raised me and all of a sudden, she's gone. Her soul left her body when she died, and I don't see why she can't just get back intoit and not be dead anymore. It's unfair and stupid, and damn it, it hurts.
When I found out, I was in History of Magic. I got a letter from her earlier that week, and hadn't written her back. Maybe if I had, she would be out when they came, since she always forgot to get ink. So she'd be out and safe and we'd be writing letters and finding us a safe place to go so they wouldn't find us, and it wouldn't matter if no one knew why she died. But I was the worst grand daughter ever and I didn't write her back and she wasn't out, and she was murdered and no one will tell me why.
-Sam