The Fear
Its that fear of sleep
The terrifying idea that my one true escape from reality
Is simply a plunge into a darker world
The knowledge that once I close my eyes
Nothing is certain
The merciless claws tearing at my sanity
As I desperately search for a safe place to rest
Why should rest be such a fearful place?
How is it that my one safety net is a trapdoor instead?
I fall blindly, unwillingly, to sleep
Praying that I only have one nightmare tonight
Instead of the many I have grown accustomed to
I am awakened by my own silent screams
To the unforgiving darkness
Left to myself to fight these demons
This has left me stronger yes
But there comes a point where
One begs God to relinquish the endless testing
And to simply feel safe
I yearn for a sanctuary, please just grant me peace
Just one more night without fear
One less time I am torn from sleep by terror
I just need Your command
“Peace, be still”.
The terrifying idea that my one true escape from reality
Is simply a plunge into a darker world
The knowledge that once I close my eyes
Nothing is certain
The merciless claws tearing at my sanity
As I desperately search for a safe place to rest
Why should rest be such a fearful place?
How is it that my one safety net is a trapdoor instead?
I fall blindly, unwillingly, to sleep
Praying that I only have one nightmare tonight
Instead of the many I have grown accustomed to
I am awakened by my own silent screams
To the unforgiving darkness
Left to myself to fight these demons
This has left me stronger yes
But there comes a point where
One begs God to relinquish the endless testing
And to simply feel safe
I yearn for a sanctuary, please just grant me peace
Just one more night without fear
One less time I am torn from sleep by terror
I just need Your command
“Peace, be still”.