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Everyone is dying lately, it's really sad. I hate when young people die, and I'm scared it's going to be someone that i was mean to.. or said something horrible to the last time i talked to them.
So, my sister told me about how she felt the same way, and she sent a message to some random people that she stopped talking to and how it made her feel so much better. and i want to do that.. but i just can't come up with the right words to say. i feel like i'm being selfish. which, it is kind of selfish.
it's not like i have enemies.. i mean i'm sure there are people that haven't liked me for a long time, but i have no drama. but i know of one person that i've said very horrible things about. and i can't be friends with that person. it would be too hard. but i do want to make things right, and it sucks.. because i don't feel like she deserves it. i can't explain how i feel right now. i really can't. i haven't thought about important things in so long.
my sister said i will grow out of that phase though.. i hope she's right. i never know how to express my feelings. i've never been good at that. either i say too little.. or say way too much which never ends up being my true feelings. it's really weird. like i said before, i can't explain it.
just how do i make things right with someone, if i don't care about them at all? does that make sense?
anybody have suggestions?
So, my sister told me about how she felt the same way, and she sent a message to some random people that she stopped talking to and how it made her feel so much better. and i want to do that.. but i just can't come up with the right words to say. i feel like i'm being selfish. which, it is kind of selfish.
it's not like i have enemies.. i mean i'm sure there are people that haven't liked me for a long time, but i have no drama. but i know of one person that i've said very horrible things about. and i can't be friends with that person. it would be too hard. but i do want to make things right, and it sucks.. because i don't feel like she deserves it. i can't explain how i feel right now. i really can't. i haven't thought about important things in so long.
my sister said i will grow out of that phase though.. i hope she's right. i never know how to express my feelings. i've never been good at that. either i say too little.. or say way too much which never ends up being my true feelings. it's really weird. like i said before, i can't explain it.
just how do i make things right with someone, if i don't care about them at all? does that make sense?
anybody have suggestions?